Read The Selected Poetry of Yehuda Amichai Online
Authors: Chana Bloch and Stephen Mitchell
puts his head down on the old man’s knees
and doesn’t understand.
Beyond them, some pretty girls are sitting on a rock
like severe lawyers
to defend the summer and administer its estate.
And a bit farther, near a dark cave there’s a fig tree,
that brothel where ripe figs
couple with wasps and are split to death.
There is laughter that isn’t burnt, weeping that isn’t dried out,
and a deep stillness everywhere.
But a great love begins here, sometimes,
with the sound of dry branches snapping in the dead forest.
Relativity
There are toy ships with waves painted on them
and dresses with a print of ships at sea.
There’s the effort of remembering and the effort of blossoming,
the ease of love and the ease of death.
A four-year-old dog corresponds to a man of thirty-five
and a one-day fly, at twilight, to a ripe old man
full of memories.
Three hours of thought equal
two minutes of laughter.
In a game, a crying child gives away his hiding-place
but a silent child will be forgotten.
It’s a long time since black stopped being the color of mourning:
a young girl defiantly squeezes herself
into a black bikini.
A painting of a volcano on the wall
makes the people in the room feel secure,
and a cemetery is soothing
because of all the dead.
Someone told me he’s going down to Sinai because
he wants to be alone with his God:
I warned him.
Poem Without an End
Inside the brand-new museum
there’s an old synagogue.
Inside the synagogue
is me.
Inside me
my heart.
Inside my heart
a museum.
Inside the museum
a synagogue,
inside it
me,
inside me
my heart,
inside my heart
a museum
A Great Tranquillity: Questions and Answers
The people in the painfully bright auditorium
spoke about religion
in the life of contemporary man
and about God’s place in it.
People spoke in excited voices
as they do at airports.
I walked away from them:
I opened an iron door marked “Emergency”
and entered into
a great tranquillity: Questions and Answers.
1924
I was born in 1924.
If I were a violin my age
I wouldn’t be one of the best.
As a wine I’d be first-rate
or I’d be vinegar.
As a dog I’d be dead.
As a book
I’d just be getting expensive, or be thrown away by now.
As a forest I’d be young; as a machine, ridiculous.
As a human being, I’m tired, very tired.
I was born in 1924.
When I think about human beings,
I see only those who were born the same year as I,
whose mothers lay in labor with mine
wherever they were, in hospitals or dark houses.
Today, on my birthday, I would like to say
a solemn prayer for you
whose lives are already pulled down by the weight
of hopes and disappointments,
whose deeds grow smaller, and whose gods multiply—
you are all brothers of my hope, companions
of my despair.
May you find lasting peace,
the living in their lives, the dead
in being dead.
And whoever remembers his childhood best
is the winner,
if there are any winners.
Half-Sized Violin
I sat in the playground where I played as a child.
The child went on playing in the sand.
His hands went on
making
pat-pat,
then dig then destroy,
then
pat-pat
again.
Between the trees that little house is still standing
where the high-voltage hums and threatens.
On the iron door a skull-and-crossbones: another
old childhood acquaintance.
When I was nine they gave me
a half-sized violin and half-sized feelings.
Sometimes I’m still overcome by pride
and a great joy: I already know
how to dress and undress
all by myself.
A Pace Like That
I’m looking at the lemon tree I planted.
A year ago.
I’d need a different pace, a slower one,
to observe the growth of its branches, its leaves as they open.
I want a pace like that.
Not like reading a newspaper
but the way a child learns to read,
or the way you quietly decipher the inscription
on an ancient tombstone.
And what a Torah scroll takes an entire year to do
as it rolls its way from Genesis to the death of Moses,
I do each day in haste
or in sleepless nights, rolling over from side to side.
The longer you live, the more people there are
who comment on your actions.
Like a worker
in a manhole: at the opening above him
people stand around giving free advice
and yelling instructions,
but he’s all alone down there in his depths.
The Box
Once my salary wasn’t transferred from the place where I work to my bank account.
I went to the bank and entered the large hall that looks like a gleaming space station.
I approached the pretty clerk and she scrolled the letters and the numerals on the computer screen in front of her.
And she said, That’s right, the money wasn’t transferred.
So I said, Look, I know that, that’s why I came.
So she sent me to the floor below her to a large quiet hall more gleaming than the one before.
And a clerk more lovely than the one before scrolled the letters and the numerals on a screen that was larger than the one before, and she said to me, That’s right, the money wasn’t transferred.
So I said, But I know that, that’s why I came.
So she sent me to the cellar of the bank beneath her.
And the cellar doesn’t gleam, and there are no computers, no pretty clerks, and it is lit by a yellow light like the light in my childhood.
And a soft, aging clerk heard me and went over to the wooden cabinets behind him in which there were many files and cardboard boxes.
He searched and took out a cardboard box, put it on the table and took the rubber band off the box.
And the rubber band was broad and pink as the elastic on women’s underwear when I was young.
And he thumbed through the papers in the box, found the paper, made amends for the money that wasn’t transferred, closed the box, wound the pink rubber band around it and put it back in the cabinet.
And I said to myself: That box is like my inner-most heart, and I came up from the cellar and went out into the street.
The Last Word Is the Captain
Because my head hasn’t grown
since I stopped growing, and my memories
have piled up inside me,
I have to assume they’re now in my belly
and my thighs and legs.
A sort of walking archive,
an orderly disorder, a cargo hold weighing down
an overloaded ship.
Sometimes I want to lie down on a park bench:
that would change my status
from Lost Inside to
Lost Outside.
Words have begun to abandon me
as rats abandon a sinking ship.
The last word is the captain.
Statistics
For every man in a rage there are always
two or three back-patters who will calm him,
for every weeper, many more tear-wipers,
for every happy man, plenty of sad ones
who want to warm themselves at his happiness.
And every night at least one man
can’t find his way home
or his home has moved to another place
and he runs around in the streets,
superfluous.
Once I was waiting with my little son at the station
as an empty bus went by.
My son said:
“Look, a bus full of empty people.”
The Hour of Grace
I used to think it could be solved this way:
like people gathering in the station at midnight
for the last bus that will not come,
at first just a few, then more and more.
That was a chance to be close to one another,
to change everything, together
to start a new world.
But they disperse.
(The hour of grace has passed.
It won’t
come again.) Each one will go his own way.
Each will be a domino again
with one side up, looking
for another piece to match it
in games that go on and on.
What a Complicated Mess
What a complicated mess in this little country,
what confusion!
“The second son of the first husband
is off to fight his third war.
The Second Temple
of God the First is destroyed again every year.”
My doctor treats the intestines
of the shoemaker who mends the shoes of the man
who defended me in my fourth trial.
In my comb there’s hair that’s not mine,
and in my handkerchief, someone else’s sweat.
Other people’s memories cling to me
like dogs, drawn by the smell,
and I have to drive them away
with scolding and a stick.
And each one’s infected by the others, and each one
keeps touching the others, leaving
his fingerprints.
The Angel of Death
must be an expert detective
to tell them apart.
Once I knew a soldier who was killed in the war.
Three or four women mourned him:
He loved me.
I loved him.
I was his.
He was mine.
Soltam makes cannons together with cooking pots
and I don’t make anything.
I Lost My Identity Card
I lost my identity card.
I have to write out the story of my life
all over again for many offices, one copy to God
and one to the devil.
I remember the photo taken thirty-three years ago
at a wind-scorched junction in the Negev.
My eyes were prophets then, but my body had no idea
what it was going through or where it belonged.
You often say, “This is the place,
this happened right here,” but its not the place,
you just think so and live in error,
an error whose eternity is greater
than the eternity of truth.
As the years go by, my life keeps filling up with names
like abandoned cemeteries
or like an empty history class
or a telephone book in a foreign city.
And death is when someone behind you keeps calling
and calling
and you no longer turn around to see
who.
On Mount Muhraka
Here where the laurel grows
as magnificent trees, not as shrubs anymore,
we heard our last tune