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Authors: E. E. Cooper

Vanished

DEDICATION

TO BOB,
who believes in all my impossible things

EPIGRAPH

But it's no use going back to yesterday,
I was a different person then.
—Lewis Carroll,
Alice's Adventures in Wonderland

CONTENTS

CHAPTER ONE

Temptation is a tricky thing—just ask Eve. That girl
got a bad reputation over a single apple. Tossed out of the Garden of Eden because of one teensy bite. Talk about harsh. It's not like she took out the whole tree. I understood why she did it, though. Even when you know the risk, there are things too tempting to walk away from even if you know you should. For Eve, the possible sweetness had outweighed the dangers. I could relate. For me it was worth it, despite the guilt. But of course, I hadn't been caught yet. It's a whole different conversation once you're busted.

I fanned some crackers onto the plate next to the slices of Brie and debated if I should add anything else to the tray. I'd already laid out a small bowl of almonds, some grapes,
and a dozen of my dad's famous chocolate coconut cookies. I might as well have pulled on a T-shirt proclaiming:
Look at me! I'm trying entirely too hard!
Beth and Britney were my best friends, but I still felt this huge pressure to impress them.

I carried the tray up the stairs. I never used to worry that much about impressing anyone, but hanging out with Brit and Beth was like finding myself on a treadmill that has a problem with the speed control. Sometimes life was going so fast I could hardly keep up, and then without warning it would slow way down and I would almost face-plant onto the belt. But it was never dull. Since they'd pulled me into their world, it felt as if my senses were on high alert. I was hyperaware of everything. I hadn't even known that my life had been blunted and dull before them.

As I walked up to my room I could hear them bickering. Britney and Beth were superclose, but they fought all the time. Britney would get pissed over some perceived slight. Beth would get mad that Britney was being so uptight. They'd vow before lunch they weren't going to hang out ever again and then by sixth period the whole thing would be forgotten. I'd learned to just roll with it. They called each other B, ostensibly because their first names both started with the letter, but in reality it was a way to jokingly call each other
bitch
. In my mind they were almost more like sisters than best friends. They might go at each other, but if someone else went after one of them they would defend each other to the death.

I paused outside my room. Their voices were getting louder.

“Will you give it a rest? I'm not talking about this anymore,” Beth said.

“It's not up to you,” Britney fired back.

Beth snorted. “Last time I checked, if it's my mind, it
is
up to me.”

I pushed the bedroom door open with my foot. Britney's mouth shut with a snap when she saw me. “I've got snacks,” I said. I hated how my voice sounded like an overeager nursery school teacher trying to distract the kids from clubbing each other with boxes of crayons.

Beth laughed when she saw the tray. “Think you brought enough food?” I wanted to run back downstairs and just bring up a bag of chips like a normal person, but it was too late. As soon as I put the tray down she leaned in to pick up a cookie. She held it out to Britney as a peace offering. “Here, my darling B, a bit of sweet for the sweet.”

Britney's lips pursed like she'd sucked on a lemon. “Do you have any idea what's in them?” She turned to me. “Are they made with butter?”

I hesitated. Knowing my dad, they were loaded with it. His two favorite ingredients were fat and sugar—because of his French heritage, he claimed.

Beth stood up on my bed holding the cookie aloft. “I declare that as these are my birthday cookies, they have no calories and may safely be consumed by all.”

Britney chucked one of my pillows at her. “Your birthday isn't until tomorrow.”

Beth grinned and dropped to her knees on the bed. “Fine, Miss Play by the Rules, I declare these cookies to be only half the calories due to the proximity of my upcoming, practically today, depending what time zone we are in, birthday.”

“I'll stick with fruit,” Brit said, taking the smallest, most stunted grape from the bunch. I almost expected her to nibble it in half and put the remainder back on the plate.

Beth shrugged. “More for us.” She devoured the cookie in one bite, leaving a sprinkle of crumbs on her lips. She winked and me and licked her mouth. I glanced at Britney as I reached for the cookie plate, wondering if she'd noticed the wink. But Britney wasn't looking at me. Something else had caught her eye.

“Oh my god, what is that?” Most people would be hesitant to whip open someone else's closet, but Britney wasn't the type to let other people's ideas of privacy and boundaries get in her way. She pulled out my blue-and-silver sari. The beading flashed in the light.

“It's what I wore to my cousin's wedding,” I explained.

Britney held it up to her face in my mirror. “I have to try this on.” She was already peeling off her jeans. When she was down to her panties and bra she looked over at me. “How does this work?”

I handed her the thin, plain skirt and cropped blouse
that went underneath. “Put these on. I'll have to help you with the rest.”

She shimmied into the skirt. I started to drape, fold, and tuck the material around Britney.

Beth watched me dressing Britney. “Seems like a dangerous outfit,” she said. “One tug and you'd be standing there in basically what your momma gave you.” She smiled at me and I flushed like I was the one who'd been standing there mostly naked.

Britney preened in front of the mirror. The fitted short blouse was too tight in the chest, since it had been made for me, but otherwise she looked great. The deep peacock blue made her eyes flash. She kept turning around so she could see herself from all angles.

“Do you have any more of these? Or could you get some?”

I felt a bit uneasy. “I guess.”

“We should all show up somewhere wearing these. Can you imagine what people would say?” She pretended to do a belly dance. “Has Zach seen you in this?”

I nodded. “He was my date for my cousin's wedding.”

“I bet he couldn't wait to get you out of it. This thing is hot. Jason will flip when he sees me in this.” Britney watched herself dance in the mirror. “He won't be able to take his eyes off me.”

Beth rolled her eyes at me. “It's not a costume, B.”

Brit froze mid-dance, a scowl spreading across her face. “Did I say it was?” She yanked on the fabric to pull the sari
off. I winced. My grandma had brought that back for me from Mumbai. I was going to have some explaining to do if Brit ripped the beading. “I was just trying to have some fun, but I forgot things are only okay if they're done your way.” She pulled on her jeans. “Or maybe it's that you hate that both Kalah and I have boyfriends instead of always chasing after the latest conquest like you.”

“Let's not do this,” Beth said.

Britney crossed her arms over her chest. “Of course not. We'll only do what you want to do, Beth.”

Beth laughed, but there wasn't any humor in it. “Seriously? You think
I'm
the one who has to have things my way? Right. You'd think the daughter of two fancy psychiatrists would have a little more self-awareness. Apparently not.”

Britney's lower lip shook. “That's so not fair.” She whirled around to face me. “I'm not like that, am I?”

There didn't seem to be a right answer. “Not all the time,” I hedged, making neither of them happy. I looked back and forth between them, wondering what the fight was really about. The only thing I knew for sure was that we weren't talking about the sari anymore.

“I gotta go.” Britney grabbed her bag off the floor.

I tried to smooth things over. “Okay. We're still on for tomorrow, though, right? It's going to be amazing.” Beth had asked me to make the plans for her birthday night out. I'd put more effort into it than most four-star generals put
into an invasion. Britney didn't even bother to answer. She stormed out, her feet thundering down the stairs.

I followed her. “Brit, don't be mad.”

She stopped at the door. I was surprised to see she was near tears. “She does whatever she wants and everyone lets her get away with it. If you even try to call her on something, she acts like
you're
the problem. She just takes what she wants and takes and takes and doesn't think once about who might be affected. But you can't just waltz through life, screwing everyone over however you want whenever you feel like it. Sometimes you have to do the right thing, and if she doesn't figure that out on her own, someone is going to teach it to her.”

I took a step back. “Beth isn't like that,” I said. Beth was impulsive, but she never set out to hurt people.

Britney shook her head like she couldn't believe how stupid I was. She slammed the door behind her.

Whoa
. I walked slowly back up the stairs, wondering what the hell had just happened.

Beth was looking through my bookshelf when I got back. She slid a book into place and smiled at me. “That girl needs a proper snack,” she said, taking another cookie. “Low blood sugar makes a person whacko.”

So apparently Beth wasn't going to confide in me about whatever was going on between the two of them. I shouldn't have been surprised to see her acting like it was no big deal. Beth was comfortable with chaos and didn't get upset easily,
no matter what was going on around her. It was one of the million things I admired about her. She never overthought anything. I, on the other hand, had perfected the ability to obsess about everything.

“Is Britney mad that I made your birthday plans?” I asked. It went unsaid that we almost always went where Britney wanted to go. It was just easier.

“I honestly don't care if she's pissed. It's my birthday.” Her lips turned up in a smile. “Speaking of birthdays, is that for me?” She pointed at the small box on my desk tied with a red satin bow. As soon as I nodded she grabbed it and shook it. I laughed and grabbed it back from her. I'd known she'd want it right away if she saw it. Patience wasn't on the list of Beth's skills.

“Your birthday isn't until tomorrow,” I teased. I held the box behind my back, enjoying how she had to reach around me to try to get her hands on it.

“I should open it now. You never know what could happen between now and tomorrow. War, famine, zombie apocalypse. Think how tragic it would be if I didn't get a chance to see what was inside.” She shook her head sadly, but her eyes were shining.

I didn't really need to be convinced. “Okay, you can open it early just in case, but I'll warn you it's not going to do you a lot of good in fending off zombies.”

Beth dropped to the floor and crossed her legs. She patted the carpet to invite me to join her.

I was suddenly nervous. “I hope you like it,” I said. When I'd found it I had been so sure it was perfect, but now I was second-guessing myself. I'd thought about asking Britney about it—if anyone knew what Beth would like, it was her—but in the end, I wanted it to be something just fully from me.

Beth shook the box again. “I hope it's not breakable,” she joked.

“I usually never know what to get people,” I babbled, wishing she would unwrap it already. “My brother, Nadir, is like a present-buying savant. Seriously, he always gets the best things. My grandma is convinced in an earlier life he was a psychic. I definitely didn't get that skill.”

Beth slowly peeled off the tape and unfolded the thick white paper. I wanted to grab the gift out of her hands and tear it open. I realized I was holding my breath and made myself exhale.

She lifted the lid and looked up at me, her face spreading into a huge smile. “Where did you find these?”

“Online.” I didn't mention that I'd spent more time looking for the perfect thing than I had writing my last English paper. “I thought you could wear them on your necklace, or I have a chain you can use. Do you like them?” I could see from her expression that she did, but I wanted to hear her say it.

Beth pulled the two charms out of the box. I'd chosen them because of her favorite book,
Alice in Wonderland.
Favorite
might be an understatement. She was always rereading her beat-up copy of Lewis Carroll's
Alice
stories. I'd found a small silver pocket watch and a blue enamel teacup that reminded me of what I knew of Wonderland.

“I
love
them. Help me clip them on.” She turned and lifted her hair so I could unhook the silver chain from her grandmother that she always wore. I smelled the rosemary mint shampoo that she used. My hands were shaking as I unhooked the delicate clasp and slid the charms onto it. As soon as the necklace was back on, Beth stood and moved toward the mirror to see it. “It's perfect. Tomorrow I'm going to wear my blue cardigan and show them off.”

I wanted to jump up and down. I felt a huge sense of victory that I'd picked something she loved.

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