Authors: Debbie Macomber
O
n Valentine’s Day, Grace drove out to visit Olivia rather than head home to an empty house. Jack had recently returned from the hospital where he’d had bypass surgery, and poor Olivia had her hands full. Apparently Jack wasn’t a good patient, which came as no surprise to Grace. Or Olivia either, Grace assumed.
She rang the doorbell and waited a few minutes before Olivia answered, flustered and unkempt, which was completely unlike her. She stared at Grace and her small bouquet of red carnations and seemed about to burst into tears.
“Looks like you’ve had a rough day,” Grace said sympathetically.
“You don’t know the half of it,” Olivia muttered under her breath.
Jack sat in the living room, arms crossed and eyes flashing defiance.
“Ah,” Grace said, glancing from one to the other. “Did I come at a bad time?”
“No,” Olivia insisted.
“Yes,” Jack countered.
“Perhaps I should come back later?”
“Absolutely not,” Olivia said, glaring at her husband.
Jack sighed his capitulation. “You might as well stay.”
“Jack Griffin!”
“Sorry, Grace.” He rolled his eyes. “I just wonder if you know how stubborn your best friend can be.”
“Olivia?” Grace feigned shock. “Never.”
“Et tu, Brute!”
Olivia mutttered.
Grace handed her the flowers and while her friend retreated to the kitchen to find a vase, she sat down across from Jack. “A little overprotective, is she?”
He snickered softly. “How’d you guess?”
“I know Olivia.”
“She’s become my shadow. I can’t even take a—use the bathroom without her running after me to make sure I’m not going to keel over.”
“That’s a natural reaction, don’t you think?” Grace asked. “She nearly lost you, in case you’ve forgotten.”
“She’s suffocating me.”
Olivia poked her head around the kitchen door. “Are you talking about me behind my back?”
Grace wasn’t about to lie. “Of course.”
Olivia frowned. “Don’t listen to him. Jack’s trying to do too much too soon.”
“I’m following doctor’s orders,” Jack shouted. He turned his attention to Grace again. “Tell her to go back to work. I need some breathing space.”
Grace disagreed. “Let her fuss over you. She needs to do that.”
Jack regarded her, then slowly shook his head. “I suppose you’re right.”
“Grace, would you like a cup of tea?” Olivia called.
“Please.”
“I’ll take coffee,” Jack said.
“Green tea is better for you.”
He started to argue but apparently changed his mind. “Whatever you think, dear.”
This time Olivia came all the way out of the kitchen. She pointed at Grace. “What did you say to him?”
Holding back a smile, Grace said airily, “Oh, just that you love him.”
Olivia’s eyes narrowed. “I’m reconsidering that. In all my born days, I’ve never known a man as pigheaded as Jack Griffin.”
Grace would hear none of it. “You’re crazy about this man. You love him—you can’t help loving him.”
To her surprise, Olivia laughed. “I do, and he knows it.”
A smug look came over Jack. “The thing is, I love her, too.” He held out his hand to Olivia, who clasped it firmly. “I’m sorry, sweetheart.”
“Me, too.” She sniffled, then abruptly went back to the kitchen.
“We argue,” Jack said. “I don’t think she’s used to that.”
“She isn’t,” Grace told him. Her friend, the judge, liked order and control; she rarely raised her voice or lost her cool. Marrying Jack had changed all that.
“But we make up, too,” Jack added. “That’s the best part.” He jiggled his eyebrows for effect.
Grace smiled. Her friend’s marriage might not be perfect, but she’d never seen Olivia happier. Jack was exactly the kind of man she needed in her life—irreverent, confrontational and fun.
“The tea will be ready in a minute,” Olivia said from the kitchen.
Jack’s eyes softened and he seemed to have forgotten that Grace was in the room. After a moment, he said, “I was sorry to hear about you and Cliff.”
Rather than comment, Grace nodded. It still hurt to think about Cliff. Much as she wanted to, she couldn’t dismiss him completely from her thoughts. In time, she reasoned, that would get easier.
“Things just didn’t work out,” she said as if it were a minor occurrence.
Olivia returned then, carrying a tray with three filled cups and a plate of oatmeal cookies.
“None for you,” she announced to Jack the instant his eyes widened with delight.
“This is cruel and unusual punishment,” he growled.
“The doctor wants you down twenty-five pounds.”
“Who made you the diet police?”
“I did. Do you want to argue some more?” she asked as she passed him a cup of tea.
“No, but it’s downright mean of you to tempt me.”
Olivia sighed. “All right, you can have one cookie.”
As soon as Jack set down the tea, he grabbed Olivia about the waist and pulled her onto his lap.
She let out a squeal of protest, then threw her arms around his neck. “Do I need to remind you we have company?” she asked.
“Am I embarrassing you?” Jack asked his wife.
“Terribly.”
He grinned as if that had been his purpose all along. “Good.”
Olivia struggled into an upright position, patted her hair and then gave Grace her tea with an air of refinement.
Grace stayed long enough to drink her tea and have a cookie and then left. On her way home, she fought a deepening depression. This was Valentine’s Day, and she was alone again. She’d been alone for the last four years, but this year it felt a hundred times worse. Dan had never been much of a
gift-giver. He’d made a few attempts over the years but she couldn’t recall a single Valentine card he’d given her, or flowers.
Buttercup and Sherlock were at the door to greet her. They always showed great enthusiasm about having her home and she rewarded them both with lots of praise and attention. After filling their dishes, she turned on the television. She wasn’t interested in any of the programs, but the TV provided company, the sound of people talking and laughing.
When the doorbell chimed an hour or so later, she didn’t know who it could be. She wasn’t expecting anyone. Opening the front door, she saw Cliff, and her breath caught. After a slight hesitation, while she fortified her resolve, she opened the door.
He waited on her porch, a bouquet of red roses in hand. At this time of year, Grace knew those flowers must have cost a fortune.
Without a word, he opened the screen door and stepped into the house. He held out the roses. “Can we talk?”
The desire to welcome him back into her life felt like an undertow, about to drag her beneath the waves. She took a deep breath as they just stood there, inside her front door. “I love you, Cliff—but no.”
Her answer appeared to shock him. “You won’t even talk to me?”
“Why? So you can apologize and then two weeks or two months down the road repeat the same behavior?”
“No,” he said. “It won’t happen again. You have my word on that.”
She wanted to believe him, but she couldn’t.
He must have felt her indecision. “I love you, Grace.”
“I’m sure you do, but you don’t trust me.”
Cliff removed his Stetson and studied the floor. “I told you what my marriage was like.”
“And I’ve told you I’m not Susan. I made a mistake and I’ve paid dearly for it. I’m sorry, Cliff, truly sorry, but I think you should leave.” Her voice faltered, but her determination didn’t.
He nodded, replacing his hat. “When you said we were through, I thought breaking it off completely might be for the best. What you said was right on target. The way I treated you wasn’t intentional—but in a sense it was. I see that now. I suppose I was hoping you’d put an end to the relationship….”
His honesty hurt, but she kept her chin high and didn’t comment. He confirmed everything she’d suspected.
“Then you were out of my life, and I was more miserable than before. Every day I found myself missing you so much. I had a hole in my heart and in my life. I realized I was the biggest fool on earth to let you go.” He paused, shaking his head. “Lisa and I talk every week. Sometimes she knows me better than I do myself. She said if I let you walk away, I’d regret it the rest of my life.”
“So Lisa prompted this?” Cliff loved his daughter and listened to her when he would listen to no one else.
“No,” he said quickly. “She was just telling me what I already knew.” Before Grace could speak, he told her, “Lisa isn’t the only one. Cal said either I patch things up with you or he’s quitting.”
Grace managed a half smile. “I don’t believe that for a moment.”
“Believe it. If you turn down my proposal, Grace, I might as well not go home.”
Tears filled her eyes. If Cliff Harding was proposing to her on Valentine’s Day, she didn’t think she’d ever forgive him for being so romantic. He made it almost impossible to say no.
“I love you, Grace,” he whispered. “I can’t live without you any longer. I tried, but nothing seemed any good. I’m working hard—and for what? I don’t need the money. At the end of the day, I walk in from the cold and the house is dark and lonely. That’s the way I feel without you.”
Grace closed her eyes rather than look at him.
“I want to love you, live with you, travel with you.”
She longed to say yes, she really did, but she was afraid….
“You said, when you made dinner on New Year’s Day, that you were going to ask me to marry you. I’d give anything to have been here. I’d give anything to have the chance to hear that proposal because, my darling, the answer is
yes.
”
His reminder was the dash of reality she needed. “I didn’t get to ask you, remember?”
“I do, and I’m sorry every day for being such a jackass. Then again, I’m just old-fashioned enough to do the asking. Grace Sherman, I love you and I want to marry you. Will you be my wife?”
She pressed her hand to her mouth and blinked rapidly. Loneliness had been her constant companion since Dan’s disappearance. Here was the opportunity to end that. Without his saying it, she knew that if she refused, she’d never see Cliff again. He’d leave, and it truly would be over.
“Will you?” he asked, his eyes pleading with her.
Grace sobbed once and nodded. “Yes, oh, yes.” Before she could draw another breath, she was in Cliff’s embrace, crushing the roses between them. He kissed her until she was weak in his arms, and then whispered in her ear, “I hope you don’t believe in long engagements.”
She laughed and hugged him tight. “I was thinking the very same thing.”
C
ecilia met her friend Cathy for lunch on Saturday afternoon at the Pancake Palace. They served a really nice meal for a reasonable price. Cecilia had been feeling low all week and was badly in need of a pep talk.
Cathy was waiting for her when Cecilia walked in. She sat toward the back of the room in a booth, waving vigorously. Her four-year-old son wasn’t with her, which surprised Cecilia.
“Where’s Andy?” she asked as she slid into the booth. Seven months into her pregnancy, there was no disguising the fact any longer. There wasn’t an inch to spare between her protruding belly and the table. In another few weeks, it’d be too tight a squeeze and she wouldn’t be able to sit in a booth anymore.
“Andy’s with friends on a play date,” Cathy explained. “I have all afternoon free, so after lunch we can do something fun.” She seemed almost giddy at the thought.
Cecilia wished she shared her excitement. To hide her mood, she reached for the menu tucked behind the napkin canister. Nothing looked appetizing but she made a decision.
“What do you think?” Cathy asked. “Shopping? A movie?”
“Either would be great,” she said, forcing some enthusiasm into her voice. “You decide.”
“Shopping then,” Cathy announced.
“That sounds perfect.” Already Cecilia felt better. “The mall or the commissary?”
“The mall,” Cathy decided. “We won’t be as likely to run into someone who’ll want to tag along.”
“I wouldn’t mind, you know.” Cathy was such a cheerful person to be around that she naturally attracted people.
“Not today,” her friend said. “You and I need quality time together. That’s what Andrew always says about him and me—but most of
our
quality time is spent in the bedroom.” She smiled as she said it.
The waitress came for their order; Cathy asked for the seafood salad and Cecilia ordered the turkey wrap with a cup of vegetable beef soup. As soon as the woman had brought their drinks—sparkling water for both—Cathy folded her hands on the table and leaned forward.
“Okay, what’s wrong?”
“What makes you think anything’s wrong?”
Cathy studied her carefully. “I can see it in your eyes. Besides, when you phoned, you didn’t sound very happy.”
“I’m not,” Cecilia confessed.
“Ian and the baby again?”
“He refuses to decide on a name,” Cecilia blurted out. “It’s ridiculous, and oh—he’s just so frustrating.”
“He knows the baby’s a boy. So what’s his problem?”
“I’ve been after him for weeks to give me suggestions for names and he just ignores me. Finally I sent him a list of my favorites and he ignored that, too.” This was the one thing Cecilia disliked about e-mail. Whatever he didn’t want to answer, he simply ignored.
“What are you going to do?” Cathy asked. “Wait until after the baby arrives? You can’t call him Baby Randall for the rest of his life, you know.”
“I do know. I told Ian he had his opportunity and if he wasn’t going to make any suggestions, I’d choose the name I liked best without him.”
“So,” Cathy said, her eyes sparkling with curiosity, “what name have you chosen?”
Cecilia placed her hand on her belly. “Aaron. Aaron Randall has a good sound, don’t you think?”
“I like it,” Cathy said, testing the name on her tongue. “Aaron Randall. Yes.”
“Ian’s middle name is Jacob and I thought we’d use that for the baby’s middle name, too.”
Cathy nodded her approval. “Does Ian have a problem with Aaron Jacob?”
She sighed. “For weeks he refused to discuss names and when I told him fine, I’d do it without him, he didn’t respond. But the minute he heard the name Aaron he went nuts. I told him about it when he called last week,” she added.
“Why doesn’t he like the name?”
Cecilia was embarrassed to repeat what he’d said. “He doesn’t want a name that begins with the letter
A.
”
“That doesn’t make sense,” Cathy muttered, and then her eyes widened. “Oh. He’s upset because Allison’s name began with A?”
“Exactly.” The waitress delivered their meals and Cecilia thanked her with a smile.
“Isn’t that being a little superstitious?”
Cecilia nodded. “He’s so afraid, and it’s really starting to bother me. I like the name Aaron. When I first went back to school, I had a teacher at Olympic College who encouraged me. If it hadn’t been for Mr. Cavanaugh, I would’ve dropped out.”
“His first name was Aaron?” Cathy guessed.
Cecilia took a bite of her wrap, which was actually quite tasty. “He became my advisor and steered me toward the bookkeeping classes. I think he must be a friend of Mr. Cox’s, too, because I was hired after Mr. Cavanaugh suggested I apply for the position.” The math professor had been more of a father to Cecilia than her own, and she wanted him to know how much his encouragement had meant to her. She kept in touch with him, sending a Christmas card each year. She’d mail him a baby announcement and thank him again for his kindness.
“Ian had his chance to name the baby.” Cecilia tried a spoonful of soup. “I tried and tried to get him to discuss names and the only reaction I got was that he didn’t like Aaron.”
“Well, like you said, he’s afraid.”
“I’m going to be fine,” she insisted, as though she had to convince herself as well as Cathy. “The baby will, too.” She’d already begun to think of the baby as Aaron, and the name was a perfectly good one.
Half an hour later, Cecilia and Cathy left the Pancake Palace and drove to Silverdale, to the Kitsap Mall. Neither of them had much extra money, so they just browsed in the baby departments. Cecilia did buy some little undershirts that were on sale.
“I’m concerned about Allison Cox,” Cecilia said as they passed a record store and saw a display of DVDs. “I think I told you. She’s fallen for this kid who looks like he’s stepped right out of
The Matrix
.”
“There’s something highly attractive about a bad boy,” Cathy said and although she was teasing, Cecilia knew it was true. The attraction was certainly there for Allison.
“I thought you told me they aren’t allowed to see each other.”
“They aren’t, and it’s killing Allison. She comes in after school and moans on and on about how hard this is. I listen and try to be sympathetic, but that boy is bad news. I’m just grateful Mr. Cox put his foot down.”
“So what’s your concern?”
Cecilia swung her small plastic bag. “Mr. Cox and Anson have an agreement and, when that’s fulfilled, Anson can see Allison again. The poor girl’s living for that day. I’m afraid she’s setting herself up for a big disappointment.”
“You’re borrowing trouble,” Cathy told her as they strolled past a display of baby furniture. “But on another subject, what do you hear from Rachel Pendergast these days?”
“Not much,” Cecilia said. As soon as Rachel had learned that Nate’s father was a United States Congressman, she’d broken off the relationship. Cecilia still planned to go to Rachel for her haircuts, but it’d been two or three weeks since she’d talked to her.
“I take it she’s running scared.”
“Yeah.” Cecilia paused to run her hand over the side of the display crib. She already had Aaron’s room set up and had purchased a used crib from a secondhand store. Everything was prepared and waiting for her son, although she hadn’t bought many new things.
“Don’t you wonder how young parents can afford all this?” she mused aloud.
“They can’t. This is for grandmas to buy,” Cathy said with a smile. “After Andy was born, Andrew and I flew home to visit my parents, and they’d bought a crib for him to sleep in while we were there. A brand-new one! Andrew and I bought a secondhand crib that he painted white. I did the best I could with decals, but it didn’t look half as good as any of these. We got a real kick out of the fact that my parents had a brand-new crib and we had a used one.”
They left the mall after a couple of hours and no other purchases. Cathy needed to get back to pick up Andy. Cecilia headed home, then changed her mind and drove to the cemetery where Allison was buried.
Cecilia made sure the gravesite was always well maintained. In the first year, she’d visited at least once a week and brought flowers. These days she didn’t come as frequently, but her daughter was never far from her thoughts.
Cecilia stooped down and with her gloved hands brushed some wet leaves from the grave marker. “Hello, sweetheart,” she whispered. “It’s Mommy and your little brother.” The baby moved inside her as if to add his own greeting. “Your daddy’s being stubborn again.” She nearly choked on the words, surprised by the emotion that rose inside her whenever she talked to Allison. “Don’t worry, though,” she whispered. “We’ll be all right.” She straightened, placing both hands on her lower back. A moment later, she returned to the car, her head bent against the February wind.