By the Sword (16 page)

“Think you're ready for some family history?” Kethry said, casting a long look at her from across the old table, as Kero reached for a piece of sausage. “I think I have a fair number of surprises for you. For one thing, you have some rather—unusual—cousins. Quite a lot of them, in fact.”

Kero froze in mid-reach.

The sorceress sat back in her cushioned chair, tucked flyaway hair behind one ear and smiled at her expression. In her russet gown of soft linen she looked nothing at all like a feared and legendary mage. She looked like the matriarch of a noble family.

And I must look like a stranded fish,
Kero thought, trying to get her mouth to close.

“Don't look so stricken, child,” Tarma said, and reached across the table, picked up the sausage, and dropped it into her hand. “There's no outlawry on the family name. It's just—well, you have a lot more relatives than you know about. Those cousins, for instance.”

“I do?” She gathered her scattered wits, and took a deep breath, only then becoming aware that she was still clutching the sausage. She put it down carefully on her plate. “I mean—you said something about
daughters
and
granddaughters
earlier, but Mother never said anything—I didn't know what to think. How many? Did Mother have a sister or—”

“Your mother had six brothers and sisters, youngling,” Tarma interrupted, grinning from ear to ear at the dumbstruck look on her pupil's face. She played with one end of her own iron-gray braid as she spoke. The tail of hair was as thick as Kero's wrist, and as gray as the coat of Tarma's mare. “Your grandmother and I are Goddess-sworn sisters, and I know I've explained that to you already.” When Kero finally nodded, she continued. “Well, what I didn't tell you was that before I met her, my Clan was wiped out by the same bandits she'd contracted to stop.”

“It was one of my first jobs as a Jounneyman,” Kethry put in, after Tarma paused for a moment, staring off at a long cloud above the trees. “They had taken over a whole town and were terrorizing the inhabitants. Tarma followed them there, and I managed to intercept her before she managed to get herself killed.”

“Huh. You wouldn't have done much better alone, Greeneyes,” Tarma replied sardonically, coming back to the conversation. “Well. We decided to team up. It worked, and we actually managed to take out the bandits and survive the experience. That was when we figured we'd make pretty good partners.”

“Then things got a little complicated,” Kethry chuckled, popping a grape into her mouth.

“A
little
complicated?” Tarma raised both eyebrows, then shrugged. “I suppose—in the same way that stealing a warsteed can get the Clans a
little
annoyed. Anyway, the main thing is that we got back to the Plains, she got adopted into the Shin‘a'in, and she vowed to the elders that she'd build a new Clan for me. Eventually she met and wedded your grandfather Jadrek, and damn if she didn't just about manage to repopulate Tale‘sedrin all on her own!”

Kethry chuckled, and actually blushed. “Jadrek had a little to do with that,” she pointed out, raising an eloquent finger at her partner.

“Well, true enough, and good blood he put in, too.” Tarma stretched, tossed the braid back over her shoulders, and clasped both gnarled hands around her knee. “That's another story. We three raised seven children, all told. When the core group claimed the herds, we added adoptees from other Clans, orphans and younglings who had some problems and wanted a fresh start. Tale‘sedrin is a full Clan; smaller than it was before the massacre, but growing. Kind of funny how many young suitors we got drooling around the core and the core-blood—but then, to us, a blond is exotic.”

“But—I don't understand—” Kero protested. “If my uncles and aunts are all Shin‘a'in, why aren't I? How did I end up here instead of there?”

“Good question,” Tarma acknowledged. “The way these things work is that even though Keth vowed her children to the Clan, what she vowed was that they'd have the right to become Clan, not that they
had
to. It's the younglings who decide for themselves where they want to go. We don't make anyone do anything they aren't suited for—the Plains are too harsh and unforgiving for anyone who doesn't love them to survive there. So—when we've got a case like Keth‘s, vowed younglings of adopted blood, the children spend half their time with the Clans until they're sixteen, then they choose whether they want to become Shin'a‘in in full, or go off on their own. Five of those aunts and uncles of yours chose Shin'a‘in ways and the Tale'sedrin banner when they came of age to make the choice.”

“Mother didn't. And?” Kero asked curiously.
Why would anyone choose to stay here? The Keep may be the most boring backwater in the world.

“I was getting to that.” Tarma gave her one of those
looks.
“Of the two that didn't go with the Clans, one picked up where his mother left off, and took over the White Winds sorcery school she'd founded and set up at the Keep—just moved it off onto property
he'd
swindl—ahem.”

She cast a sideways glance at Kethry, who only seemed amused to Kero. “Excuse me. Earned. That's your uncle Jendar. It's not that he didn't like Clan life, it's that he's Adept-potential, and all that mage-talent would be wasted out there. There's another son, and he's mage-gifted as well. That's your uncle Jadrek, only he's a Shin‘a'in shaman. But your mother Lenore was last-born, your grandfather died when she was very small and we had some problems with the school that kept us busy. Maybe too busy. She—well—” Tarma coughed, and looked embarrassed. “Let's say she was different. Scared to death of horses, and had fits over the Clan style of living, so we stopped even sending her out to the Plains. Bookish, like Jadrek, but no logic, no discipline, no gift of scholarship. No real interest in anything but ballads and tales and romances. No abilities besides the ones appropriate to a fine lady. No mage-talent.”

“In short, she was our disappointment, poor thing,” Kethry sighed, and twined a curl of silver hair around her fingers. “She spent all her time at the neighboring family's place, and all she really wanted to be was somebody's bride, the same daydream as all the girls she knew. I scandalized her; Tarma terrified her. Finally, I fostered her with the Lythands until she was sixteen, then brought her back here. She came back a lady—and suited to nothing else.”

Kero thought about her mother for a moment, surprised that for the first time in months—years—the thoughts didn't call up an ache of loss. Even when Lenore had been well, she'd been fragile, unsuited to anything that took her outside the Keep walls, even pleasure-riding, and likely to pick up every little illness that she came in contact with.
No wonder she didn't like Tarma or her Clan. Living in a tent for three moons every year must have been a hell for her.

“So what were you going to do?” she asked carefully. “Mother wasn't the kind of person you could leave on her own. She was better with someone to take care of her.”

Kethry smiled slightly, the lines around her eyes deepening. “A gentle way to put it, but accurate. Frankly, I had no ideas beyond getting her married off. I wanted to find a really suitable husband for her, one she could learn to love, but after one experience with suitors, I despaired of finding anyone that would treat her so that she'd survive the marital experience.” Her eyes hardened. “That suitor, by the by, was Baron Reichert. Not the Baron then, just a youngster hardly older than Lenore, but already experienced beyond his years. One might even say, jaded.”

“One might,” Tarma agreed. “I prefer ‘spoiled, debauched, and corrupt.' He was never interested in anything other than the lands, and when he saw how delicate your mother was, he damn near danced for joy.”

She scowled, and Kero read a great deal in that frown. “Need saw it, too; damn sword nearly made Keth pull it on him and skewer him then and there. First time that stupid thing's been totally right in a long time, and us having to fight it to keep from being made into murderers. But given what's been going on, maybe we should have taken the chance.”

Kethry sighed, and leaned forward a little. “Well, we were in a pickle then. I knew Reichert would keep coming back as long as she was unwedded, and Lenore was just silly enough that he might be able to persuade her that he loved her. I was at my wits' end. I even considered manufacturing a quarrel and disinheriting her long enough for Reichert to lose interest. Then your father showed up, escorting a rich young mageling, and looking for work when his escort duties were done. Strong, handsome, in an over-muscled way, full of stories about the strange places he'd been, and amazingly patient in some circumstances. Personally, I thought he was god-sent.”

“The fathead,” Tarma muttered under her breath. Kero winced a little; not because of what Tarma had said, but because she couldn't bring herself to disagree with it. She'd been here at the Tower for several weeks, now, and with each day her former life seemed a little less real, a little farther distant. She supposed she should be feeling grief for Rathgar, but instead, whenever she tried to summon up the proper emotions, all she could recall were some of the stupid things he'd done, and the unkind words he'd said so often to her.

I'm turning into some kind of inhuman monster,
she thought with guilt.
I can't even respect my father's memory.

“He may have been a fathead,
she‘enedra,
but he was exactly what Lenore needed and wanted. A big, strong man to protect and cosset her.” Kethry looked up at the blindingly blue sky, and followed a new cloud with her eyes for a moment. “I offered to let him stay on for a bit, and the moment Lenore laid eyes on him I knew she was attracted to him. Give her credit for some sense, at least—Reichert terrified her as much or more than
you
ever did. I was just afraid that he'd notice what he was doing, and manage to convince her he was harmless.”

“Tender little baby chicks know a weasel when they see one,” Tarma retorted, scratching the bridge of her beaklike nose with one finger. “That's not sense, that's instinct. Lady Bright, I suppose I should be glad her instincts were working, at least. One year in his custody, and you'd have been out a daughter,
and
lands,
and
probably under siege in this Tower.”

“Probably,” Kethry agreed wearily. “Well, to continue the story, that young mage was the last pupil we were going to take; we planned to retire within a few years. So I let Rathgar stick around—and I told Lenore I wanted her to run a little deception on him.”

“That
part I know about,” Kero exclaimed. “If you mean that she pretended to be the housekeeper's daughter instead of yours, so he felt free to court her—” Kethry nodded, and Kero flushed. “When I was little, that seemed so romantic....”

Tarma snorted. “Romantic! Dear Goddess—I supposed she'd think of it that way. We were both afraid that if he knew she was Keth's daughter, he'd never even think about courting her. We just wanted her under the protection of somebody who'd take care of her without exploiting her.”

“It all would have worked fine, except for Rathgar himself,” Kethry said, shaking her head. “If I'd had any idea how he felt about mages—well, she fell very happily and romantically in love with him, and he was just dazzled by her, and it all looked as if things were going to work out wonderfully. He proposed, she accepted, and I told him who she really was—”

“And the roof fell in.” Kero felt entirely confident in making that statement. She knew her father, and had a shrewd guess as to what his reaction to such a revelation would be. Outrage at the deception, further outrage that this
mage
was his beloved's mother. Before long he'd have convinced himself that Kethry had some deep-laid plot against him, and he'd have done his best to pry his poor innocent Lenore out of her mother's “deadly” influence.

“I didn't see it coming,” Kethry admitted. “I should have, and I didn't. And at that point, it was too late. My daughter was deep in the throes of romantic love, and Rathgar was her perfect hero. Anything Lenore heard from me on the subject threw her into hysterics. She was certain that I wanted to part them.”

“She thought he made the sun rise and set,” Tarma said with utter disgust, her hawklike face twisted into an expression of distaste. “It's a damned good thing he was an honest and unmalicious man, because if he'd beaten her and told her she deserved it, she'd have believed him. How could
any
woman put herself in that kind of position willingly?”

“I suppose I should have expected it,” Kethry said gloomily. “I set the whole mess up in the first place. You know what your people say—‘Be careful what you ask for, you may get it.' For the first time she had someone around who thought she was wonderful just as she was, helpless and weak, and
wasn't
trying to force her to do something constructive with her life. Of course she thought he hung the moon.”

Tarma threw up her hands. “I still don't understand it. Keth went ahead with the marriage, because anything was safer than letting Reichert have another chance. Well, that was when Lenore decided Keth and I were old fools and began listening only to Rathgar, and when he saw he had the upper hand, he started making demands. Finally it came down to this: when Lordan was born, he made Keth promise never to set foot on Keep property without an invitation.”