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Authors: Nikki Giovanni

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FOR MARK DRESSMAN

Who would have thought

There would be / could be a button

On the wall

Where when you touch

The room lights up

Electricity didn't build

On the candle

It replaced wax

Who would want to believe

Human beings could sit

On a Hydrogen Bomb

(we call it a Space Ship)

and sail off into Space

and walk on the moon

and land a surrogate on Mars

Just to Marvel! at the unknown

And why wouldn't

We want to take what is

Known

And add what is

Wonderful

And let the poems flow

From tears of laughter

From sweat of work

From the deliciousness of tomorrow

To the knowledge of Today

Grant me that A implies B

B necessitates C

C calls for D

And eventually

You and I will get an Alphabet

Grant me that Curiosity implies Research

Research requires Reading

Reading delights the heart

And you and I will get a voice

Grant me Love implies

not desire but

Commitment

Commitment accepts Challenge

Challenge embraces Theory

And you and I will get Reason: A way to explore
                                            past actions
                                                and
                                           future dreams

Good for us

On your Mark Dressman

Get Ready!

Let's Poem!

POSTCARDS

A little calf

Dancing in the rain

Unaware of the joy

She brings me

I speed along at 70 mph

Trying to get home

The baby colt asleep

In the sweet grass

Mother patiently watching

Over him

I am packing my bags

For London

Trafalgar Square

Silver-faced mime

A war throwing kisses

Couples laughing

I wish I wish I wish

You were here

IN DEFENSE OF FLOWERS

Dear Editor:

I write in defense of flowers. It seems that lately everyone wants to put flowers in competition with other good works. Someone will die and the family will say “in lieu of flowers,” which seems unfair to me. It should be “in addition to flowers . . .” Flowers and the florists who make them into beautiful sculptures are not some adjunct to our occasions. We wouldn't dream of marrying without flowers no matter how small a bouquet nor how elaborate a setting. What would February 14th be without flowers for the ones you love? And Mother's Day! Could there beat a heart so cold that there is for Mother a . . . what . . . electric skillet, “in lieu of flowers”? But florists cannot just count on one or two days a year for a business. Florists purchase flowers that a flower farmer has nourished from seed, then harvested, then transported to shops where they then fill your loving request. Florists hire people to work with and for them, keeping a small business going in these difficult times. What are we saying when we say insurance companies and predator lenders are too big to fail—that florists and other boutique businesses are too small to succeed? Why is it the minute we want to save money we cut out the arts and flowers? I know that some will say “Well, what do we do with the flowers when the event is over?” We use these wonderful gifts of nature to comfort us when we bury the departed; we use them to celebrate our special occasions; we use them to say “I love you'' to a beloved. They then can travel from our hearts to hospitals comforting the ill and injured; they can visit with the Ladies of the Red Hats to add joy to their meetings; they can be shared with an elderly neighbor on a fixed income who would welcome the extravagance. Some will surely say “But we need charitable contributions.” Indeed we do. I cheer for charity all the time. But there is a need for flowers as surely as there is a need for hummingbirds. Some things are wonderful on their own; enchantment is reason enough. I remember when my mother passed five years ago a friend who had been in Thailand learned late of her passing and sent a beautiful bird-of-paradise almost a year after the event. I confess: A note saying
A Tree Has Been Planted Somewhere
would not have been as comforting. And I could dry it and press it into the memory book as “The Last Flower.” Not “in lieu of flowers.” No. In addition. Because flowers neither reap nor sow they are perfect for mourning and rejoicing. Flowers sing a silent song that says: “I really care.” Flowers are the “Honey, I'm home” when work is put aside; “Good Night, Sweetheart” at the end of the day; the sigh at the end of a kiss. Why should we deny ourselves the beam of the moon against the quiet sky? Why should we privilege anything over the fragrance of love?

WEREWOLF AVOIDANCE

I've never “blogged” before

so this is new

territory for me I do

poet though and that

is always somewhere in

the
netherland
I think

poetry is employed

by truth I think

our job is to tell

the truth as we see it don't you

just hate a namby-pamby poem that goes

all over the place saying nothing

Poets should be strong

in our emotions

and our words that might make us

difficult to live with but I do believe

easier to love

Poet is garlic

Not for everyone

but those who take it

never get caught

by werewolves

EXERCISE

I want to ride

On a train

I sometimes fly

In a jet plane

I love to cruise

In a big boat

I'd even float

In a green moat

Of course I could always

Bike

And for health reasons

Hike

But if I had my druthers

I'd get my exercise

In your arms

I COMMUNICATE

I communicate

With you

In the dark

I am a shadow

At eventide

A white piece of chalk

On a white blackboard

I am a blackberry

On a bear's purple tongue

I am a pebble in your oil tank

Flush me out

You will run smoother

But with not nearly as much fun

Bumping

Moves us all along

I fly away at morning

To await your sleep

I will sneak in

Too dark

Too quiet

Too loving

For you to say

No More

I don't want a shadow

I want you

THE LONE RANGER RIDES THE LONESOME TRAIL AGAIN

I watched
The Visitor

They

Like boys shaking salt on slugs

Chased

Deported

Misunderstood

The pain

Were indifferent to

The lives

They were destroying

They tried to convince

Me

They were protecting

Me

Those boys

Who explained

Why they were throwing

Stones at mother robin

Breaking her wing

And preventing not her flight

But her ability to feed

Her three little hatchlings

Who are condemned to death

By starvation

They laughed

In nazi-ese

They were only doing

Their jobs

What pitiful

Little gerbils

We have

Become

We live

To keep others

From living

I saw
The Visitor

Play his drum

While Sarah Palin

Field-dressed a moose

And encouraged her daughter

To have sex

With her oldest son

Sarah was

After all

Too busy at the PTA

Explaining what
abstinence
means

Oh boy

What ecstasy

I am embraced

With lies

And hypocrisy

Hug me, Baby

Do it Good

I am an American

My life

Is a fucking prison

Hi Ho, Silver

Away!!!!

FOR RUNAWAY SLAVES

Here we stand

Negotiating

That space

Between I'm in love

With you

And let's be friends

This will not turn out well

I need a guitar

Or a good drunk

Or something ugly

To find

The song

In these blues

Let's get a twelve-string

Banjo

And sing a song

For runaway slaves

MY DIET

If you are what you eat

I'm definitely having an exciting poem

For breakfast

Lunch will be a mean metaphor

With lots of rhythm on the side

Pounding that baked beat

To say what's on my mind

Dinner is a more sedate affair

A simile with a little sweetness

For dessert

And that should make for something

Exciting to come

Out of me

In the morning

NICKELS FOR NINA

Saturdays were tedious because there were always chores which didn't actually take that long but after lunch (which I always enjoyed with Grandmother) I had to go to the beauty parlor. As a kid I didn't mind but when I got to be 14 or 15 I had other things to prepare for. Of course, many of my friends who were boys would go swimming on summer afternoons and most of us who were girls would sit and watch. Even with swimming caps our hair would get wet and “go back” so we stood or sat on the sidelines. The crazy thing about all that was if there was a dance at The Phillis Wheatley Y you also couldn't “slow drag” because the boys would be sweaty against your face and your hair would get wet and “go back.” It goes without saying that we were not allowed to slow drag.

But having survived all that, we awakened to wonderful Sunday mornings. We attended Mt. Zion Baptist Church where grandpapa was a Deacon and Grandmother helped with Sunday School and other things. I remember she wasn't an Usher and she didn't sing in the choir, though she had a beautiful voice, nor did she play the piano or organ, though she could do both.

I wasn't actually paid for chores, since I slept and ate there, but Grandpapa would give me a quarter or sometimes a bit more for Sunday School and church. I'm a big fan of “rendering” so I didn't actually mind putting money in both times but finally my grandmother realized I had nothing left to go for ice cream with the other kids and she kind of directed me to “share” with God but not give it all. Ice cream is important, too. Peach, for her. Vanilla, for me.

Bonnie, Joanne, David, and the rest would leave Sunday School at about 10:30
A.M.
and walk down to Carter-Roberts Drug Store. Church didn't start until 11:00. Carter-Roberts had a jukebox where a quarter would get you six songs which individually would be a nickel apiece. We all chipped in. It was Nina Simone.
Live at Central Park
I think. She was singing “I Loves You, Porgy.” I already was and remain a big fan of
Porgy and Bess.
I can understand, though I disagree with, the folk who disliked
Amos 'n' Andy
. I could see it was important to see Black folk on TV and, to be fair, it was funny. Maybe not funny in the rerun called
Good Times
and certainly not funny in the sequel called
The Jeffersons
but
Amos 'n' Andy
worked for me at that time.
Porgy and Bess
even I, a kid, knew was important. It is classic. And if you loved, as did I, mythology,
Porgy and Bess
fit right in. Let me confess: I never actually believed George Gershwin wrote all that music.

I believed Gershwin spent a lot of time “uptown” to learn to translate the music that became
Rhapsody in Blue
. I grant him total control of
An American in Paris
. But
P and B
? No way. “Summertime” could be heard anywhere the Black community was giving thanks for another season. The rhythms are all gospel. Even the chants. “Strawberry Woman.” No way. And Nina Simone reclaimed it for us. She brought that southernersness but on a sophisticated level to us. We all loved her.

Our last nickels, having forgone ice cream, went to Nina. And we were satisfied.

So you can imagine the thrill I felt when I walked into Michaux's bookstore in Harlem one fall afternoon and Nina Simone was there! I didn't even try to be cool about it. I love you!!! I gushed. She was very nice about it. That Nina Simone had read my book was beyond compare. I was over the top. My mother was coming to town and I was having a party to show Mommy that I have friends and I'm all right. I invited Nina. My thought was this: Probably most people are fans so they think the star is always busy doing glamorous things so the star never gets invited to do things with ordinary folk. I gave her my address and phone number. And left.

She came. My mother was thrilled. So was everybody else. Nina was good people. I'm proud to call her my friend.

BLUES FOR ROANOKE

We sit like Sally Walker

In a circle trying

To spin something wonderful

On this loom hoping

Maybe a magic dwarf

Will come to show

Us where the gold is

We sit in here together

Not in a square nor

Rectangle

But the triangle between right wrong and really

Who cares

Facebook says I have friends

Friends say strange things

Avoiding my face

There is a star

Which is not me

Though it should be

On a hill

It shines on Henry Street

Where Duke Ellington played

Where Nat “King” Cole sang

Where dancers danced

The blues away:

The segregation blues

The you can't go here or come there blues

The evil blues played on a stolen banjo

The railroad blues that strummed the lines

While the Pullman Porters called
George
by some

Called
Honey
by some

Called
Daddy
by some

Called
Grandpop
swayed with the coming winds

And danced the blues away

We sit in a circle

And that story that keeps us warm

Feeds our hearts

Makes us know

This Star city is Mine

That star at that mountain shines

For me

At me on me

Doo wap doo wap

I got the Roanoke blues

And I'm feeling fine

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