Consumed (Rockstar Romance) (Lost in Oblivion, 3.5) (23 page)

“I’m not running a 5K, period. I’ll save that for my friend, Deacon.”

“C’mon. It’s good for you. I ran my first marathon last year.”

Simon knew she was trying to make him feel better. Part of him appreciated it. The rest of him just wanted to get the fuck out of there. “I don’t run unless zombies are chasing me.”

“Or fans,” Margo chimed in with a cheeky smile.

He mustered up a smile.

“I know you’re discouraged. I can see it in your face. But you’re young and I confess I’ve gone on YouTube to see how you sing. It’s impressive, but I can tell you’re straining. I think working with a vocal coach and doing vocal therapy will help a lot.”

Had he been straining all his life? Was he fooling himself into thinking that he’d get to do what he loved?

She pulled a drawer open and took out an envelope. “These are a few of the coaches I like and recommend. If you don’t like them, or want to do your own research, I completely understand. But finding one is important. And start now, because getting an interview takes time. Especially in this town.”

He took the envelope. “Thanks, Dr. Connor.”

“Remember, limited voice usage. No phone, no yelling, and no whispering. I know it sounds weird, but it’s no good for you.”

“Do you want to keep him on the low acid diet?”

The doctor looked at Margo. “It’ll help for this next month. Alcohol is definitely still off the menu. It’s just not good for your cords. Especially now as they’re healing. I want you back here in three weeks.” She stood.

He got up as well. “I’ll be here.”

“Good.” She shook his hand and then held it out to Margo as well. “I’m glad you have someone in your corner, Simon. Healing your voice is up here,” she tapped her temple, “as much as here.” She tapped her lower throat. “I included my email if you have questions. I’m busy, but I answer email later at night.”

“Thanks.”

The doctor opened the door. “Okay. I’ll see you in three weeks, and we’ll assess it from there.”

The long walk down the hallway seemed a lot shorter now. They stopped and dealt with insurance and payments and appointments. He plugged the date into his calendar and stuffed the envelope into his back pocket.

All he wanted to do was grab a bottle and blink out. All while he’d been in St. John, he’d rarely thought about drinking. He’d been too focused on the moment and Margo. Now all he saw were people staring at him.

He wished he’d thought to wear his hat. All he had were his shades. He put them on as they walked toward the front of the hospital.

“I texted the driver to come by and get us.”

He nodded.

“Simon?”

He turned to her.

She moved in front of him and slid her hands along his sides. “Do me a favor?”

He shrugged and nodded.

“Say my name.”

His lips twitched. “Which one?”

She smiled. “Your favorite.”

“Violin Girl?”

She tipped her chin up, her lips spreading into a wider smile. “Oh, yeah.”

As much as he wanted to throw a chair through a window with the rage building in his gut, he actually found himself laughing. Not just smiling at his girl like he’d done for the last two weeks, but allowing a laugh to come out. Some of the anger dissipated as he lowered his mouth to hers. “Margo,” he said in a low voice.

She bit her lower lip. “Definitely. I missed that.”

“Me too.” He pressed his forehead to hers. A horn made him look to the street. He took her hand and drew her across the sidewalk to the curb.

“Where we headed?” the driver asked.

He rattled off the address to the house in the hills. Margo settled beside him and hooked her arm through his, but she seemed to understand that he wasn’t up to talking, even if he was allowed to. He stared out the window as the city flew by. Once they got onto the interchange, his pocket buzzed.

He pulled it out, expecting to see Nick’s number. Instead it was Roman. And all it included was a hyperlink.

He pressed it and the page unfolded. Turquoise ocean, a cloudless sky, and his face filled the screen. One of Roman’s shots from the ocean floor up to the crazy throne-style chair he’d posed in. His signature smirk gave an arrogance to the shot.

Badass shot.

Of him.

On the front of Roman’s site. And when he entered, there was a gallery of shots and the page views were staggering. In the thousands.

“Um, Simon?”

He glanced at Margo.

“You’re trending on Facebook.”

“What?” He leaned over to look down at her phone.

“Yes. Roman put a few teaser shots on his page just to say he’d done a special shoot and…wow.”

Simon opened his Facebook app and did a search for Roman’s page. “One-point-three-million likes? Are you kidding me?”

She made a
tut-tut
sound. “Modulated.”

Fucking modulated voice, his goddamn ass. What in the fuck?

A green text message popup flagged at the top of his screen. Simon swiped it alive.

N
C
: Are you fucking shitting me? You go on vacation to supposedly chill and now your face is every-goddamn-where? Fuck off.

S
imon blew out a slow breath
. He couldn’t tell if that was a pissy text, or a snarky one. He kinda figured it was a 50/50 deal.

Before he could answer the texts, he got a new one from Lila.

L
S
: I’m not your secretary. Deal with this. I’m forwarding you the 53 agent emails I got between last night and this morning. I set up an email account for you.
[email protected]
. For now they’ll forward to your regular email.

LS: You’re lucky I didn’t give that one out. It was a close thing.

“
W
ell
, shit. It looks like I have to hire a fucking assistant.” He looked over at her. “Want the job?”

“God, no.”

He laughed and slung his arm around her neck. “Welcome home,” he said with a sigh.

S
imon sat
at the dining room table at the Hollywood Hills house. An iPad, new Mac Air, and his phone were in one cluster and he had a freaking planner in front of him.

A planner.

He’d never had a calendar in his life. Oh, he’d had one on his phone that was always dinging at him for some appointment or whatever, but Lila had been in charge of that. And before Lila it had been the annoying Gordo on their first tour.

Now he was actually responsible for keeping track.

He sucked at it.

“Do you even know what all those things do, Super Slut?”

He looked across the table where Jazz and her very pregnant belly sat. She had a pile of yellow and green envelopes in front of her and a roll of stamps. And glitter. A lot of glitter.

“I know that they’re all annoying and want me to answer things.”

Her bubbly laugh poured out. “Oh, man. That’s what you get for being pretty.”

“Yeah, pretty.” He forced himself not to snort. Not to do anything voice-ish was gonna fucking kill him. He nodded to her. “You don’t have this problem.”

“Was that a backhanded compliment?”

Simon grinned at her. “Maybe.”

She stuck out her tongue and tossed a coil of empty plastic onto her discard pile. That was her second roll of stamps. “I don’t want that problem. I keep our YouTube channel up to date with the Bellamia.” She patted her belly. “Harper and I started doing a little natural foods segment for babies.”

Jesus fuck. How had they gone from the height of sold out shows to baby food?

Oh, that’s right—he couldn’t sing.

He and Margo had been home for three weeks and the baby brigade was in full steam ahead mode. Harper was almost ready to pop and Pix was right behind her. There was much bitching about swollen ankles, boobs, and the inability to get out of chairs without assistance. Hovering husbands, formerly known as a guitar god and a demon bass player, had lost their manhood.

A surly Nick was the only thing unchanged in the whole house.

He had to get out of there. The house felt even tighter than it used to. It might be the explosion of baby shit that had taken over the living room and the garage, but it was more than that. He used to love the chaos. Now it just felt like everyone was staring at him.

Was he talking too much?

Why didn’t he talk to anyone?

Was he looking for a voice therapy coach?

How are you feeling, Simon?

He wanted to scream that was feeling fucking hemmed in. But he didn’t—because he wasn’t supposed to fucking scream. Though it was almost worth it.

An email notification popped up on his computer. Jazz was still babbling about carrots and peas as he opened the email. The realtor he’d been talking to had found an apartment he wanted Simon to see.

“Fuck, yes,” he said.

“I know, right? Broccoli is gross when you use a food processor. Only those florette things with cheese. Then it’s delicious.”

“Hmm?” He looked up from his screen.

“You weren’t listening.”

“Carrots?” he asked.

“I hate you.”

He closed his laptop, grabbed his phone and stood up. He moved down to her end of the table and kissed her forehead. “No, you don’t.”

“Where are you going?”

“Another meeting.”

She pressed her lips together.

“What?”

“You’re not talking too much, right? I mean…like within reason.”

He nodded. “Yes, Mom. I let them do all the talking and just stand there and look pretty. Right?”

She frowned. “I didn’t mean it like that.”

He sighed. “Sorry. I’m just tired.”

“Yeah, Margo wasn’t here last night. You’re moody when she’s not around.”

He didn’t sleep well without her, that was for sure. She didn’t like staying at the house, which was one more reason for him to get off his ass about getting an apartment. She’d gone back to Boston to take care of some things with her house and would be back at the end of the week.

If he could get moving on a few things, he might have something to show her when she got back.

“I’ll be back tonight. Not sure when. You okay here?”

“Yes.” She patted her belly. “More thank you cards and Gray will be home for dinner. He’s out working with a few new bands that Donovan set him up with. You know, you could do that. You don’t have to sing. You and Nick were the writers for almost all the songs before we came along.”

Simon fisted his fingers around his phone. Writing songs he couldn’t sing? No thanks. “Roman is keeping me busy. And I have a dozen more jobs on my calendar. I’m booked through September.”

“The camera does love you.”

“Helps pay the bills.”

She nodded. “Yeah. That’s why Gray is writing so much. But it keeps him busy. He’s not really great at being bored. And with the baby coming, things are going to get crazy.”

“How’s the house coming along?”

“It’s running neck and neck with my due date. I’m pretty sure Gray is going to break his kneecaps. At least that’s what he keeps telling me during pillow talk. And if he tells us that one more thing is going to cost extra, it’s going to happen.”

“Have fun glitterfying the world, Pix.”

“It makes the thank you note extra special.”

“I wouldn’t expect anything less.” He grabbed his keys to his new car on the way out. He’d done a photoshoot for Audi when their last spokesperson had to be replaced for shooting someone in a club. Getting that deal had been the ringer for his new agent, Stefan Wesley.

The guy was a beast. He had him booked for five gigs barely a day after Simon had hired him. But he was well on his way to a decent payday. And his baby present to Jazz and Harper would be paying their end of the suit.

He wasn’t going to have any of that over his head. No way were his friends paying for his mistakes, or his shortcomings.

The trip into the city was snarl-inducing. He’d started listening to audio books in the car to calm him down. Just the idea of music made his stomach churn. And he had to listen to techno bullshit at most of his jobs.

It was enough to make him want to shoot himself in the head. And because he wasn’t really allowed to talk to anyone anyway, he had wireless Bluetooth headphones for the photoshoots. He liked the Dresden Files. The dude that played Spike on
Buffy, The Vampire Slayer
was the narrator. A fuckup magician was just the thing to get him through the long, boring days.

When he got into the city, he plugged the address into the dash GPS. He sort of knew where he was going, but Venice Beach had a million side streets. He pulled into the parking garage of a rehabbed high rise when his girl told him he’d arrived at his destination in her smooth British accent.

Simon checked his phone and texted back the realtor that he was in the building. The bombshell redhead met him at the front desk.

“You made it.” Her voice was warm caramel. She held her hand out for a shake. She was like Lila only slightly more Playboy channel. She wore the same curve-worthy suits, except she used her feminine wiles to push him into opening his checkbook.

He let her do her spiel about security and the upgrades made to the apartment building. The main desk had a burly security dude and the lobby had a special key for every tenant. It only went to their floor.

Simon liked that aspect.

The fans had been out in force since he’d gotten back to California. The paparazzi trying to get pictures of him going everywhere. And no matter what building it was, there was speculation he was seeing some expert or doctor.

They could speculate all they wanted. His second visit with Dr. Connor had gone much like his last. Keep his damn mouth shut and heal up, son. And if his voice didn’t work, then he’d make his face do the job.

For now.

They stepped on the elevator. “So, what do you think?”

“I need to see the view, Bobbi.”

“That’s what you always say, Simon.”

He didn’t give two shits about the layout of the place. He had to buy all new crap to put in it anyway. “Give me my perfect ocean view and we’re golden.”

“You do know how hard that is? Everyone wants that.”

“Yes, but I gave you a pretty decent price point.”

“You did,” she agreed. “And I think I found exactly what you want.”

“I did say Venice Beach. Last time you showed me Santa Monica. And the time before that you tried to push me down near El Segundo. Do I look like I want out near the airport? The commute into the city sucks as it is.”

“It was the perfect place.”

“Yeah, except the part where you forgot to tell me that the owner was murdered by his wife for cheating.”

“It kept the price down.”

Simon shook his head. Every damn building in Los Angeles and the surrounding area had a story. Damn melodramatic town.

“Besides, Venice Beach isn’t exactly the best waterfront property in the world. It’s tourist city here.”

“It’s what I want.”

She sighed. The doors opened and she held her arm out. “Well, hopefully you’ll like it.” They walked down the plush carpeted hallway. “There’s only two apartments on this floor. And the other is being renovated.”

“Like carpenter and loud noises forever, renovated?”

“It will be done in four weeks.”

He sighed. Things could be worse. She opened the door and he whistled. It was a huge, open floor plan. Industrial with hardwood throughout and an exposed brick kitchen with jet black appliances. There was one step down to the living room and nothing but windows.

“I’ll take it.”

“You haven’t even seen the master bedroom.”

“Don’t care.” He walked to the window and saw the beach and the boardwalk right below him.

“Well, at least look at it so I can say I did my job.”

He followed her into a short hallway that opened into another room with more windows. There was a raised dais for what looked like a king-sized bed. He stepped up and turned around.

Ocean. All of the ocean a body could watch.

“When can I get in here?”

“I’ll put the bid in. I can get the keys on Sunday.”

“Perfect.” He stepped off the dais and went back to the window. “There’s a bonus in it if you can get a designer to do a rush job.”

“I’ll make it happen.”

He turned away from the view. “Thanks, Bobbi.”

“Is there a reason for the rush?”

“Just need a place of my own.”

And a place that he could convince Margo to move into.

Margo tugged her carry-on down out of the overhead compartment. She’d spent the last few days juggling her finances and fending off her mother’s calls for a visit. Her audition for the LA Philharmonic was in a week.

She was trying out to be an alternate on the second violin chair. The current violinist was going out on maternity leave. If she did well, they might keep her on for a permanent position. But that was six months of permanent work.

Something she desperately needed.

She’d done a few studio jobs, but the bicoastal trips were killing her and whatever extra she was making was being eaten up by air travel. Her current situation wasn’t working and she didn’t know what to do about it. Because she didn’t want to leave Simon.

He was handling things as well as could be expected, but she knew he was struggling. She felt it in the middle of the night when he reached for her. Both of them were desperate to keep the connection they’d found in St. John, but the house with the band was crowded and when he wasn’t in town, she felt weird staying there.

Jazz and Harper made her feel welcome, but both of them were always squirreled away talking about babies and the new food they were developing. She felt out of place. And now that Oblivion was on the sidelines, Lila was taking care of other aspects of Ripper Records.

Margo was in limbo and didn’t fit anywhere.

She got into the line of sheep shuffling off the plane and out into LAX. Simon hadn’t texted her back since that afternoon so she had no idea if he was picking her up or not.

Shuffled from departure to baggage, she checked her phone as she rode the glider.

“Is there a Violin Girl looking for a ride?”

She looked up and whipped her head around as the glider whipped past him. “You jerk. I was just texting you.”

He stood on sidelines, his hands dipped into worn dark jeans. A green shirt hugged his lean body and made his eyes glow. He wore one of Roman’s leather jackets, the soft leather emphasizing his amazing shoulders.

The rude T-shirts were gone now that he’d been modeling. Most of the time it was because he got a perk for wearing the designer clothes when he was out and about. The only thing that never changed was his shaggy hair and his shitkicker boots.

She couldn’t explain why she always noticed that, but she did.

She got to the end of the glider and met him in the middle. He had her bags on a cart, including her two large violin cases.

“Are you finally moving in?”

Margo stopped in front of him with her carry-on dragging behind her. “I don’t know, Simon. It’s…” She trailed off. “It’s complicated.”

“No it’s not. In fact, I have something to show you.” He waggled his eyebrows.

“I’ve seen that.”

“Har-har.” He dragged her into him and caught her mouth in a slow, sweet kiss. When he pulled back, he cupped her jaw and swiped his thumb along her cheek. “I missed you.”

She licked her lips and twisted her fingers into his shirt. “Yeah, I guess I missed you, too.”

“Oh, you guess?”

“Maybe.” She rose onto her toes and met his mouth again. “A little.”

He gripped her hair a little tighter and the teasing kiss got a little more heated. When someone bumped her arm and set her off a step, she finally stepped back.

“Watch it, pal,” Simon said.

“Get a room,” the older man muttered as he melted into the crowd.

Margo huffed out a laugh and tugged on his arm. “He’s right. We’re holding up the flow here. Besides, I expect you to show me a proper welcome home hug.”

“Oh, you’ll be the one hugging something.” He pressed his lips to her ear. “I’ve missed being inside that sweet body of yours. Simon senior misses his favorite pussy.”