Hart (11 page)

“Will, I need you”

“Fuck what’s wrong doll?”

“It’s Grey”

“What the fuck has he done?”

“He’s left”

“What left to go to work or left and gone to America?”

“Gone to America”

“Where are you?”

“I’m at the shop but I am going to walk home now”

“Wait there I will come and get you”

I end the call and walk outside, out the way of the builders. I sit on the bench opposite the shop, I miss him already. I watch as Will pulls up in his car and jumps out and hugs me

“You ok Cam?”

“No I don’t think I am”

“Come on I will take you home, do you have wine?”

“Yes”

Three hours later we are sat on the sofa watching a film, I feel quite drunk “Will?”

“Yeah”

“I think I fell in love with him”

“I know you did”

“How?”

“I can tell, remember I know you”

“Why didn’t you say something?”

“Because you were actually living and happy”

“Yes I was”

“Come on, you always knew he was going to leave”

“I know but I was sort of hoping he would fall in love with me and stay”

“Life isn’t a fairy-tale, you should know that”

“Thanks Will”

“Do you want me to stay?”

“No you go home, hey did you cancel your weekly dates?”

“I did”

“And is James coming down?”

“Yes at the weekend”

I nod my head as Will stands to leave “See you tomorrow and thanks for rescuing me”

“You’re welcome doll, anytime”

I wander to my bedroom and check the time, I know I shouldn’t but I grab my phone and call Grey, the number just rings no reply, although I get to hear his sexy voice, I end the call and lie on the bed, as my first tear drops on my face, how could I be so stupid and fall in love with a, what did he call himself, wanker? Although I don’t believe it, he was kind, thoughtful, sexy, beautiful. I scream FUCK as loud as I can and cry myself to sleep.

I wake several times in the night and each time I have a glass of wine, when I wake in the morning I finish the bottle off and go back to sleep. I wake again at lunch and go to get something to eat which I take back to bed, I dose on and off all afternoon, when I’m not sleeping I’m crying.

Will calls around later that night, he says I’m allowed to cry as much as I want but tomorrow I move forward, get the shop done and start fresh. I agree with him and cry myself to sleep on his shoulder.

The next month flies by, the shop is looking great and will be finished in a couple of weeks and my new house will be ready in the next week after the interior designer has finished, I’m really looking forward to moving in, Will is still going to move into the guest house and he has kept his word, he has stopped all contact with the other guys and just sees James once a week. He moved in with me, to keep an eye on me, I wasn’t doing so well after “He who should not be named left”. I did ring him several times but he never answered I suspect he moved on.

I arrive home first so I cook us a meal, Will comes in starving, once he has polished the food off, we start on the wine

“Cam if I ask you something will you tell me the truth?”

“Always”

“Ok, did you ever ring Grey?”

“I tried his mobile several times but he never answered”

“Did you ever try and find him?”

“No and I don’t like to admit this but I don’t know his surname, why are you asking?”

“Just wondered”

“Ok, you and James, is it serious? Will it go anywhere?”

“It’s really good but I’m not sure he will come out”

”Oh Will”

“I know but I’m happy for the time being, oh and before you ask, yes I am in love with him”

“And what about him, has he told you that he’s in love with you?”

“Sort of”

I nod my head sounds like James. Will has got me thinking why didn’t I ever ask Grey his surname? I suppose it was because I didn’t want him to know mine.

“Jesus Will, I think we’ve got ourselves in a mess”

“I agree, Love” he shakes his head “It’s not easy” ”Hey have you taken a test yet?”

“What test?”

“A pregnancy test”

“No”

“Well you’re late…”

“How the hell do you know something like that?”

“I marked the last one on my phone so that I would be ready when you called; I’ve been waiting for that call for five days”

“Oh my God Will, do you think I am? I was feeling sorry for myself and just thought we didn’t have time”

“Do you have one?”

“No”

“Wait here, I will pop down the chemist”

I watch as he jumps out the chair and runs to the door, once he’s gone, I burst into tears. I’m not sure why I’m crying, is it because I miss Grey or is it because I might have the one thing I have yearned so badly for, for such a long time? I pace around waiting for Will’s return, I walk to the back door turn and walk back through the house, I bite my nails, I walk back again to the back door, I hear his car come back and race to the front door to meet him.

“You ok Cam?”

“Did you get one?”

“Yeah I got three”

I watch as he brings the bag from behind his back, I quickly grab it and open the bag “Do I just have to pee on the stick then?”

“Fuck Cam how do I know I don’t have a vagina!”

I rip open the box and grab the instructions “Ok, I just have to pee on this end and wait three minutes”

“Ok go, do it now”

I quickly walk to the loo, I pull the cap off and see that my hands are shaking, I pee on the end replace the cap, wash my hands grab the stick and return to Will

“You ok, how long does it take?”

“Three minutes”

“Shit, come here” I watch as he sets the timer on his phone then he wraps his arms around me. We stay like that until the bleep sounds, Will gently releases me and we both look over to the stick on the counter.

“Go on Cam”

“I’m scared Will, what if I’m not”

“I told you I will help, now go look at your pissy stick” he pushes me towards the stick, I walk slowly to counter and gently turn the stick over, I look down and in blue writing its says Pregnant “WILL”

“What does it say?”

“I’m pregnant”

“Thank Fuck for that, congratulations Doll”

I am so excited that I burst into tears, Will comes over and cuddles me from behind, he looks at the stick “Oh doll, it’s everything you ever wanted”

“I know I can’t believe it”

“Are you going to try and find Grey?”

“No, I have my bit of him now” my hands go to my belly and gently rub circles

“I know a great Doctor, I will get you an appointment “

“Thank you Will for everything”

“Hey what are best friends for?”

We are nearly half way through filming this movie and it’s been hard, every morning when I wake up my first thought is of Cam and what she is doing as the day goes on I think about her less because I am working hard but at night that’s when I can’t shake her from my head, I read my script for the next day and work out, that is what my life is, I haven’t been near another girl, I’m just not interested but today Tanya who is the leading lady on the film is sitting next to me at lunch

“Hey Grey, you ok, you seem sad, not like your reputation at all” she says has she puts her hand on mine and I quickly pull away

“Yeah, I’m ok thanks”

“If you like we have another hour to wait before we are needed we could go back to my van and you know?”

I sit and think about it, perhaps it’s what I need to do to get Cam out of my head, I slowly nod my head

“Ok come over in five minutes, I will be waiting for you”

I nod my head again and watch her walk away, a couple of months ago, I would have fucked her on the first day then make my way through the rest of the female cast, shit get it together I think and slowly rise from my chair and walk to her van. I knock on the door and walk in. Tanya comes towards me wearing just her fancy underwear, I know I have kissed her but that was my character not me, I’m not sure I can do this. She reaches me and goes straight for my jeans, she undoes them and pulls them down, I just stand with my eyes closed, I try to imagine she is Cam, I feel her hand on my cock ok I’m getting harder but that is because I am thinking of Cam, when I feel her mouth on the head of my cock I open my eyes and look down, I can’t do this, I pull back and quickly grab my jeans and pull them up “look Tanya I’m sorry, it’s not you, it’s me, I’m working through a break-up”

“Fucking Hell Grey”

“I know I’m sorry, I thought I could but I can’t” I turn and walk out her van and across the parking lot and walk straight into Nikki

“Greyson, I was looking for you”

“Hey Nikki, what’s up”

“Nothing just stopped by to see how it was going. I’ve spoken with the director and he is singing your praises, reckons you are brilliant”

“Yeah well what can I say?”

“Greyson is everything ok, they say you are brilliant but you look sad”

“I’m working on it”

“Was it that girl in England?”

“Yeah, I just can’t get her out of my head”

“Have you spoken to her?”

“No, I broke my phone and her number was on there”

“Christ Grey there must be another way of contacting her”

“No”

“Ok I can help what’s her name”

“Cam”

“Cam what?”

“I don’t know?”

“Oh so you talked a lot?”

“No, she thinks I work in an office and only knows me as Grey”

“Nice one, mate”

“Well it was you who called me back without being able to say goodbye properly”

“Well you never said it was serious, ok so you know where she lives and works, right?”

“Yeah but the only phone she has is the number I lost”

“Can’t you send her some flowers and ask her to ring you?”

“Fuck why didn’t I think of that”

“I will leave you to it, keep up the good work, oh and Greyson, well done for keeping off the drink”

“Thanks”
 

I walk back to my van and grab my laptop, I google bookshops in Latton – fuck none listed, it can’t be open yet, I sit thinking about what else I know.

Will picks me up for the Doctor’s appointment that he arranged, it’s just outside town. Will must sense I’m nervous because as he is driving he reaches across and holds my hand

“Everything will be fine Cam”

“I hope so, I’m really nervous though”

“I can tell, it’s just round the corner”

I look up as we pull into the surgery; it’s an old Victorian building with no evidence that it is a Doctors surgery.

“You sure Will?”

“Yeap, come on”

He jumps out of his side and walks round an opens my door, he takes my hand and almost pulls me out of the car “Christ Will”

“You are stalling”

He pulls me towards the door and rings the bell; we stand on the doorstep and watch as the door opens and a young smart girl smiles at us

“Good Morning William and you must be Camilla”

“Good morning” we both reply

“Please come in”

We walk into the hallway, this place is really nice with its high ceilings and tiled floor

“Doctor Kelly is ready for you, please come this way”

We follow her through the house until we come to another door; she knocks on it then opens it

“Doctor Kelly, Camilla and William to see you”

“Thank you send them in”

She stands back as Will still holding my hand walks in first, the Doctor introduces himself then asks us to take a seat

“So what can I do for you today?”

“Cam has taken a home test and it says she is pregnant, only I don’t think she really believes it”

“Ok, Cam have you been trying for a baby or is this a mistake?”

“Oh I have been trying, I just can’t believe it to be right”

He asks me to pee into a bottle; I leave the office and find the toilet, once I’ve managed to get the pee in the bottle I return to his office. I place the bottle on his desk, I watch as he gets up and takes the bottle over to the counter, he dips a strip of paper in and looks at it

“Congratulations Camilla, it appears that you are indeed pregnant”

We work out how many weeks I am and he books me in for a scan, I’m so excited and Will is too.

“What do you have planned for the rest of the day” he asks

“I need to stop by the shop and the house but nothing really planned”

“Why don’t you take the day off let’s get lunch and go to the cinema”

“I can do that, thankyou”

“I’m buying to celebrate, I have a niece or nephew on the way”

I look at him, he is so pleased for me and excited for himself

“What do you fancy?”

“A burger and fries”

We arrive at the café and Will orders while I find us a seat, I sit thinking about the dates the Doctor was working out, I must of got pregnant on our last night together, the night that I felt that Grey made love to me, my hand slowly rubs over my belly as I think about that night, I miss Grey so much, I think I actually fell in love with him, I’m not sure why that surprises me, God he was so handsome and his body. I’m still smiling when Will returns with the food

“Still smiling then?”

“I still can’t believe it, when I first arrived here and you wanted me to have sex with three men, I was like you got to be kidding but wow I managed one and I doubt that I would bother with anyone else again, surely it could never be that good again”

“You still miss him?”

“I do”

“Why don’t you find him, tell him the news?”

“I’m not sure it’s his thing, you know”

“Well you will never know until you tell him…”

“I did ring him a couple of times, he never answered or called back”

“Perhaps that was a temporary phone for when he was over here?”

“Yeah, but I wouldn’t know where to find him, I know nothing about him, what about you how’s things going with James?”

“Amazing but you don’t want to hear about that do you?”

“No I bloody well don’t”

We eat lunch then watch a film at the cinema, Will drops me home afterwards, saying that I am his new Tuesday girl and that we are going to do that every week. I agree and walk into the house.