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Authors: Jaclyn Reding

Tags: #Fiction, #Anthologies (Multiple Authors)

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Harriet came back around to face him. She wore a new shift, dry and falling nearly to her ankles. Her hair was still damp as it twisted about her shoulders. “It was many years ago. I was out riding and just happened upon the opening quite by chance. I remembered you and Geoffrey talking about all the caves you had explored together as lads, about the smugglers who’d hidden their contraband in them. You would never let me come with you to explore them. I was curious, so I came inside and found this place instead. I couldn’t believe it. It seemed carved by some sort of nether magic. I’ve been coming here ever since. It is unlike anything I’ve ever seen. Even in winter, the water is warm and the strongest blustering wind cannot bring a chill inside.”

Tristan took a step closer. Harriet shifted. “And the walls—look at them,” she said in effort to divert his attention away from the curve of her neck. “See how they shimmer in the sunlight? They are filled with rough amethyst.” She gave a nervous laugh. “You’ll probably think this is silly, but when I was a young girl, I used to imagine this was a secret fairy haven. I wondered that if I went into the water, perhaps I could find my way to some mystical underground kingdom.”

Tristan took another step toward her, his voice dropping softly. “And did you find it, Harriet, your fairy kingdom?”

Harriet lowered her eyes. “See, you do think I’m silly.”

“No. Truly, I don’t.
I think you’re beautiful
.”

Harriet looked up at him and their gazes locked. Neither moved nor said a word. Neither had to. Each already knew what the other was thinking. Seeing her now, her hair hanging in dripping red strands, her skin aglow in the shimmering light from above, Tristan was more certain than ever that it was Harriet he wanted, needed, in his life. He wanted to spend his days looking at her, watching her grow old with him, listening to her thoughts about worldly things and even otherworldly things. He wanted her to be his wife and bear their children. He wanted to tell her the things he told no one else, things he kept hidden away deep inside himself. He wanted to share all of the rest of his adventures with her.

He wanted to love her.

And looking into those eyes, the greenest depths of emerald, Tristan knew that Harriet wanted those things, too. If only he could somehow convince her to cast aside the shadow of that damnable legend and follow the advice of her heart.

Without a word, Tristan reached for Harriet, took her fully against him, and lowered his mouth to hers for a kiss.

Harriet felt quite certain the earth had ceased its spinning and everything else outside of that cave somehow melted away to a blur. The touch of his mouth, the strength of his arms, made Harriet lose herself to the singular pleasure of the racing of her own pulse beat. It was the first time in her life she had ever been kissed, and she gave herself over to it, trembling with sensation as his thumb traced along her chin, opening to the pressure of his mouth against hers.

She tasted him on her lips and tongue. She dropped back her head and arched into him even more. She felt him moan softly against her, his kiss becoming one of urgency, hunger, awakening her senses and sapping her strength until she felt sure her knees would buckle beneath her. It was the most incredible thing she had ever known.

When his mouth left hers to drag across the taut column of her throat and he lifted his hand to gently cup her breast, her knees did buckle and she clung to him, never wanting to let go. The kiss was more than she could have ever imagined, and Harriet knew from that moment on, her life would never be the same again.

But then, just as quickly as the gift of his kiss had come, like a bolt out of the blue, a voice sounded in Harriet’s head, shattering the magic of that fleeting moment.

Yon Maid of Macquair, and any after, with fiery hair and eyes as green as ice, shall watch her chosen husband

perish, and any man after him, unless she should take to husband a man of honor, a man of cunning, and of an age that is younger than she . . . else the ancient clan of Macquair shall vanish forever.

Shall vanish forever . . .

Forever.

With a gasp, Harriet pushed away from Tristan. She covered her mouth with her hand and backed several feet away, staring at him in sudden speechless terror.

He looked stunned. “What is it, Harriet? What is the matter?”

“Did you . . . hear that?”

“Hear what?”

Harriet didn’t respond. Instead she looked up out of the cleft in the rock above her head. Sunlight no longer shone inside, glistening the walls with its amber and amethyst light. Somehow, in the space of that one moment, in the measure of that one brief kiss, the skies outside had darkened with a brewing storm, the wind whipping in off the firth and whistling through each tiny crevice around them like the keening of a thousand distant voices.

Forever . . .

“We should not have done that.” She looked at him, her expression grave. “It wasn’t wise.”

“Wise? What the hell do you mean, Harriet? I kissed you, and it was . . . wonderful, and then suddenly it was gone.” Tristan took a step closer. “What happened just now? Why do you look so—frightened?”

Harriet shook her head, holding out her hands as she skirted to where the rest of her clothing lay. Tristan took a step toward her.

“No, Tristan! Don’t come any closer to me.” She took up her stockings, hurriedly pulling them on. “I should not have done that. You should not have done that.” As she tied off her garters, she looked up at the sky, seeing something there that he did not, and pleaded, “It was a moment of weakness, nothing more!”

“A moment of weakness?” Tristan looked at her. “Harriet, who are you talking to?”

She jerked on her skirt. “No one.”

She was hurriedly fastening the waist of her skirt, hastening to jam her arms into the narrow sleeves of her redingcote. Finally, when she had twisted her hair into a wet knot beneath the cover of her hat and was making to leave, Tristan reached out and took her by the arms, shaking her. Her hat fell and the wet weight of her hair tumbled down her back anew.

“Stop it, damn it! Don’t you see this is craziness? You love me. I love you. Did you hear me, Harriet? I said I love you.”

Harriet’s eyes dulled more gray than green as she shook her head in dismal defeat. “No, Tristan, you cannot love me. Don’t you see? It can never be.
We
can never be. I thought you realized that last night.”

“The only thing I realized is that you’ve been listening too long to old wives’ tales. It is time you started living in this century, Harriet, not in those centuries already past.”

“No . . . Tristan, I cannot involve myself with you! It is foolish . . ., dangerous . . .”

“Why? We are two people who want nothing more than to spend the rest of our lives together. Whatever could be wrong with that?”

Harriet didn’t respond, just pulled away and made great work of fastening the buttons on her boots. When she straightened, Tristan took her by the arms again, refusing to let her go.

“Deny it, Harriet. Deny that the kiss we just shared meant nothing to you. Deny that it made you feel more alive than you’ve felt in a long time.” He could see the beginnings of tears glistening in her eyes. He wished he could banish them. “You cannot deny it, Harriet. Because it would be a lie.”

Harriet dropped her head forward to rest against his chest. She mumbled into his waistcoat, “Why, oh why, couldn’t you have been born just one day later, Tristan?” Harriet lifted her head to look at him, bringing a single corkscrew tendril falling down her cheek, twisting just beside her ear. “You must accept it, Tristan, as I have. No matter what my heart feels, or how much I loved kissing you just now, any attachment between us is impossible. I am going to Edinburgh, as I had originally planned, and I am going to find the man who will be my husband. We will forget that any of this ever took place. It is the only choice I have.”

Tristan stared at her through eyes dull with despair. Suddenly it was as if a vast chasm stood between them with no possible way across and he realized he had lost her even before he’d truly found her. “You can try all you like to convince yourself of it, Harriet, but I know that I will never forget what we just shared. Nor will I ever forget what we could have been.”

And with that Tristan turned and walked out of the cave—and out of Harriet’s life.

Chapter Four

. . . If the adventures will not befall a young lady in her own village,

she must seek them abroad
.

—Northanger Abbey,
Jane Austen

Edinburgh

Harriet’s first glimpse of the Scottish capital city was that of an ancient stone fortress perched high upon a mountain of rock reaching nearly to the clouds. Besieged, destroyed, and rebuilt several times over, a castle had stood on the site for the past eight centuries at least, playing host to the likes of Mary Queen of Scots, even Robert the Bruce.

Beneath this lofty cragged crown ran a mile-long stretch of road called the High Street, wide enough for five carriages to ride abreast, lined by tall stone buildings with slate roofs, some six, even ten stories high. Like a formation of watchful soldiers, they towered above the small coach carrying Geoffrey, Devorgilla, and Harriet past the city gates—Robbie perched eagerly in Harriet’s lap, wagging his wiry tail at every passerby.

High above their heads, tall chimneys puffed out billowing clouds of coal smoke that had given the city its nickname of “Auld Reekie.” Ladies leaned out windows. Boys and dogs chased one another around the Mercat Cross. Everywhere they looked, there was something of interest to be seen.

For Harriet, who had never gone farther than an afternoon carriage ride from home, the city was like a vast world of adventures just waiting to be had. From almost the first moment after they’d departed Rascarrel the day before, the sun had come out with glorious ceremony, banishing the dull, colorless clouds that had plagued the skies nearly endlessly over the past weeks. Spring was approaching. Harriet decided to take it as a sign that she was doing what she was meant to, coming to Edinburgh to seek her future. If only that thought could somehow ease the bittersweet memory of Tristan standing before her in that cave, telling her the words every girl longed to hear.

I love you.

How angry he’d been that last time she’d seen him. He had left for the city without even saying good-bye, refusing Geoffrey’s offer to accompany them in the coach, opting instead to ride to Edinburgh alone on one of the horses from the Rascarrel stable. Didn’t he realize she was doing this for him? Couldn’t he see that if she had her choice, they would be traveling to Edinburgh together to share the happy news of their betrothal with her father? Every waking moment, since the moment Tristan had returned with Geoffrey to Rascarrel, Harriet had fought the battle of her head against her heart. It would be easy, so,
so
easy to throw caution to the wind and marry Tristan. Everything in her heart told her to do just that . . . but then she remembered the words of her aunt, of how she had spent her life haunted by the memory of the man she had loved, who had died for loving her. Harriet knew she would rather spend four lifetimes without Tristan than endure one waiting every day for some peril to befall them. She could only hope that someday he would realize the sacrifice she made for him.

When they arrived at the Rascarrel town house on Charlotte Square, no one was more surprised to see the children of Baron Rascarrel standing on the doorstep than Baron Rascarrel himself.

As a young man in his twenties, Hugh Drynan Baron Rascarrel had been a gent of the city, an artist struggling to pay the rent painting portraits of wealthy patrons while dreaming of the day when his true heart’s work, landscapes of his native Galloway, might find their own niche among the exhibitions at the renowned galleries.

It had been a bright spring day much like the present one when he’d gone to a local bookshop seeking inspiration nearly three decades before. Turning a corner, he’d collided, literally, with a woman he thought must surely be a fairy nymph. All fiery red locks and sparkling green eyes, she had cast a spell about him with her smile. Like a dream come true, this vision with the name Viola Macquair Maxwell had asked him if he’d like to take a walk with her around the park.

A fortnight later they were wed. It made no matter to Sir Hugh if Viola had chosen him for his age or the color of his breeches. He’d been utterly captivated.

Now in his early fifties, his graying hair brushed forward in the style of the day, Hugh Drynan’s interests in art had turned from that of creating to collecting. His was said to be one of the finest collections in the kingdom, so fine, in fact, he’d recently received a request from the Prince Regent to view it.

“Harriet?” the baron asked upon seeing his only daughter standing smiling on his doorstep when he’d only just left her a few days earlier in Galloway. “Has something happened?”

And then he recognized the grin of his long-absent son behind her. “Geoffrey! Lad, you’ve come back!” He threw out his arms to them both.

“This is a surprise,” he said as he ushered the party of them inside. They withdrew to the parlor where the baron immediately began to quiz Geoffrey about the wars, the Continent, Napoleon, anything to fill the gap of the past years apart while Harriet went off to the kitchen to brew them all some tea.

“... and there I was in Brussels,” Geoffrey was saying as she brought in the pot and set it on the table, “enjoying a nice bit of French brandy at the Duchess of Richmond’s ball when I looked across the room and spotted Tristan of all people dancing with the duchess’s daughter. We spent the rest of the night catching up. It was like he’d never been away. And then, suddenly, within hours we were marching to battle, fighting side by side. It was all over nearly as quickly as it had begun, and we were coming home.”

The baron nodded. “Good lad, Tristan Carmichael. Glad to hear he’s made a life for himself after the tragedy of his parents’ accident. Where is he now?”

“He’s here in Edinburgh actually. Come to see his godfather. He’s planning to reside in Galloway eventually, once things there have been settled.”

“Settled?” questioned Sir Hugh. “Is something the matter?”

Geoffrey glanced quickly at Harriet, who was setting out the cup of tea she’d just poured. She frowned at him. “You might as well know, Father, for you’ll no doubt hear about it later. Tristan has asked me to marry him.”

“Splendid!” The baron beamed. “I hope you said yes.”

“Actually, no. I refused him.”

“What? Why . . . ?” And then he realized. “Oh, yes, the prophecy.” He knew the story well, but it had been a blessing to him, not a curse, for it had brought him the gift of twelve years with his beloved wife.

Sir High looked closely at Harriet. “You love Tristan. You have since you were a wee lassie.”

Harriet stared at her father, dumbfounded that he should know something she’d thought only known to her.

“You were devastated when he left Galloway, Harriet. A father can sense these things about his only daughter.”

Actually, it had been Devorgilla who’d told him, but Harriet need not know any better. “But certainly a man born the same day as you should be safe enough.”

“That is the same thing Tristan said, but what if it is not?” Harriet left the tea tray and crossed the room to the window, blowing on the brew in her cup to cool it as she watched the traffic pass by. “What if some misfortune were to befall him? We would never know until it is too late. And I would never forgive myself if Tristan came to harm because of me.”

The baron nodded, unable to argue against his daughter’s unhappy logic. “She makes a good point.” He let go a sigh. “Chin up, my dear. I’m sure all will work out in the end. It always does.”

Harriet, however, found little comfort in his words.

After they shared a makeshift supper of cold ham and crusty bread, Geoffrey and the baron went off to the nearest pub for a celebratory tankard of ale. Devorgilla excused herself, claiming a headache from their journey, and retired above stairs for a nap. Harriet was thus left alone for the afternoon to sit and ponder how best to find herself a husband in less than a fortnight.

Where on earth to begin?

The knocker on the front door sounded at almost the same moment. Harriet went to the hall and opened the door onto the greeting smile of an older woman carrying the most enormous muff Harriet had ever seen. Only after Robbie began barking at the thing, and it hissed, did Harriet realize it was a cat.

“Good day to you!” the lady’s melodious voice rang out. “I am Lady Harrington. Lord H and I hold the house there on the corner just across the square. We had despaired of meeting anyone new this season at all, but then I saw your coach, saw that you had baggage and meant to stay, and I knew I had to come right over to meet you.”

She was like a swirl of new spring air, all floral and brisk and lively. Harriet invited the woman inside, cat and all, asked the kitchen maid to bring tea, and settled in for a visit. In truth, she was grateful for the diversion. All Harriet had been able to think about was the fact that Tristan was there, in that same city, possibly even on that same street, and she could not see him. In fact, as angry as he had been the last time she’d seen him, he likely would never want to see her again.

For all her formidable figure, Lady Harrington was quite fashionable with her salt-and-pepper close-cut curls graced by a stylish bonnet. Lucinda, as she asked Harriet to call her, spent a pleasant hour chatting about the comings and goings of most every family in the neighborhood, how Lord and Lady So-and-so’s son had lost a fortune at the gaming tables the week before, or that the Earl of Whatever’s mistress lived in a flat in the small house off the lane. She seemed to know everyone’s business and Harriet soon found herself likening her to a vibrant butterfly, flitting about from flower to flower, making certain to stop at each one lest she should miss out on something important.

“Have you children of your own?” Harriet asked when she finally managed to get in a word.

“I have two daughters, Wilhelmina and Rosalind, now grown and moved away.” The viscountess sighed. “I devoted my life to seeing them both successfully wed, one to an earl, the other to a marquess, no less. They are my finest accomplishments.”

It soon became apparent that now that her daughters were wed, Lady H was quite at loose ends with what to do with herself. As such, she was always on the lookout for new opportunities to employ her matchmaking expertise.

“So, my dear, I saw you arriving with a handsome young man this morning.”

Harriet poured them each a fresh cup of hyson. Her only experience in female
socializing had been with Devorgilla or the occasional call to the vicar’s wife, so she fell into conversation with the fascinating viscountess quite easily. “Yes, we are very excited because my brother, Geoffrey, has just returned from the Peninsula.”

“The Peninsula! I declare, how exciting!” The viscountess chuckled to herself. “For a moment, when I first saw him, I thought he might be your husband.”

Harriet handed Lady Harrington her tea. “Oh, no, my lady. I am not married.”

“Betrothed, then?”

“No, ma’am.”

“Significantly attached?”

Harriet simply shook her head.

The viscountess’s eyes lit up like a bonfire. “My heavens! How can it be that such a lovely girl hasn’t yet found her way to the altar?” She answered before Harriet ever could. “But, of course, that must be the reason for your visit to the city, isn’t it? To find yourself a husband?”

Harriet chewed her lip. Was her desperation so obvious? She looked at Lady Harrington. She’d only just met the woman but something about her told Harriet she could confide in her. “I’ll admit I had rather hoped to meet some eligible gentlemen ...”

“I knew it!” The viscountess clapped her hands with delight.

“But I’ve a slight problem,” Harriet confessed.

“What, dear? No dowry?”

“No, I am well dowered.”

“A scandal from your past then?”

“Indeed no. It is just that . . . for reasons I cannot go into now ... I have less than a fortnight in which to find myself a husband.”

For anyone else, this might have been a deterrent. But for Lucinda, Lady Harrington, Matchmaker Extraordinaire, it was little more than a challenge—a challenge she was all too eager to accept.

“Well, then, we’ll have to act quickly. And I know just the person to help you.”

“You do? Who?”


Me
! I am acquainted with every family of good breeding in town, and even some of not-so-good breeding, if you know what I mean.” She fished inside her beaded reticule, taking out an ivory-covered tablet and pencil. “I shall make a few notations . . . tell me, dear, do you prefer light, or dark?”

Harriet was lost. “Tea?”

“No, dear, suitors! Do you prefer your gentlemen blond-or dark headed?”

“Oh, well, dark, I suppose . . . but not too dark. Sort of an ash brown.”

The viscountess nodded, scribbling. “Tall, or closer to your own height?”

“Tall.”

“Of a good build?”

“Yes.”

“A well-established man who has his own fortune . . . preferably titled ...”

“. . . and with eyes the color of the bluest sky.”

At the viscountess’s curious stare, Harriet realized she’d just described Tristan. “Truly, my lady, I don’t think I would know until I saw the man for myself.”

“Indeed. And I know just the place to do it.”

Harriet looked at her, waiting.

“The Annual Assembly. It is hosted by the Society of Edinburgh Ladies, of which I am a founding member. ‘Tis this coming Friday at the Assembly Rooms on George Street, just down the street from here. Invitations went out weeks ago, but I will make certain you receive one this very afternoon.”

Harriet brightened. “Oh, Lady Harrington, could you? That would be wonderful! I honestly didn’t know what I was going to do. I’m afraid I haven’t much experience with this sort of thing.”

The viscountess smiled. “Tut, tut, dear. Just leave that to me. By week’s end, you’ll have more acquaintanceship than you ever dreamed possible.”

She stood then, taking up her cat muff from where it lay snoozing on the settee. “I’m off now. Other calls to make, you know. The days just don’t have enough hours in them.” She started for the door to leave. “Now, if you are in need of a gown for the assembly, you must go posthaste to Madame Angelique’s shop on Rose Street. She is without a doubt the finest modiste in town. Comes from France, of course. All the good ones do. Her girls can measure you up and deliver something splendid in time for Friday evening. Just tell Madame I sent you. Oh, and don’t forget to ask her to include your red petticoat, dear, just in case. You never know if you might need it.”

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