Rod Lucas had been to the hospital shop, and he looked up from his newspaper when he heard Abigail stir.
He checked his watch. He had been there for a couple of hours.
Abigail groaned and tried to roll over.
‘Miss Hobbs?’
She turned towards him and reached out. There was a bandage over one eye, and the other one looked swollen and red. ‘Who is it?’ she asked, sounding quiet and weak.
‘It's all right,’ he said, and took her hand. Her skin was cold and her hand felt brittle. ‘There's no need to move, Miss Hobbs. I'm a police officer.’
Abigail raised her head, and then she winced and lay back down again. ‘Am I still in the hospital?’ she asked, her Lancashire accent slowed down by the drawl of the countryside.
‘Yes, you are,’ he replied, his voice gentle and soothing. ‘You'll be home soon.’
She took a few short breaths, and then asked, ‘What happened?’
‘Someone set you a trap,’ he said.
She swallowed, and Rod could tell that she was thinking back to the events of the morning.
‘Tibbs? I could hear Tibbs. Is he all right?’ she asked.
He took hold of her hand and gave it a squeeze, as if the action would make her stronger. ‘Tibbs is dead, Miss Hobbs.’
Abigail gave out a small cry as the events of the morning came back to her. She gripped his hand tightly as she realised what had exploded in front of her eyes.
He let her cry it out for a while, but when her quiet sobs died away, he asked gently, ‘Who would do that to you?’
He passed her a tissue, and as she wiped her nose, she replied, ‘I don't know. I've done nothing to harm anyone.’
‘No enemies?’
Abigail waved her hand dismissively. Rod took that as a no, but he wasn't too sure.
‘It's happened to other people, not just you,’ said Rod, watching her face for some recognition, but Abigail didn't respond. ‘Have you heard that?’ he pressed. ‘Do you know these other people?’
She turned away.
‘Miss Hobbs?’
‘Go to your family,’ she said.
‘How do you know I've got a family?’
‘You have a kind voice,’ she said softly. ‘That comes from contentment. And your family are waiting for you.’
That stalled him for a moment, but he asked again, ‘What's going on, Miss Hobbs?’
Abigail didn't answer. She rolled over in the bed so that he couldn't see her face any more.
He stood. ‘Sorry to have disturbed you,’ he said. ‘If you want to tell me anything, get in touch.’ And he wrote his name and number on a scrap of paper and placed it on the small cupboard next to Abigail's bed.
His footsteps were just light taps as he left the room. No one else stirred. He took one last look at Abigail, but she hadn't moved.
I waited for Laura in a coffee bar a few minutes' walk from the police station, in a cobbled backstreet with views over the cathedral gardens. It had a mocha coloured shop-front and rickety metal tables, none of the bright lights of the chain coffee-houses, but it sold good coffee and that was enough.
I had been thinking about Katie Gray, how she had been with me, that touch of her hand before I left. But then I saw Laura at the end of the street, and I felt a jump. Was it guilt? Or was it something better than that? Perhaps it was the excitement I used to have when I saw Laura, that feeling that I had got luckier than I deserved.
She flashed a quick look down the backstreet but then she waved when she saw me looking out of the window. I asked the café owner for another cappuccino and reached out my hand as she sat down. My fingers brushed over her knuckles, like we were stealing moments together.
‘I'm sorry about this morning,’ I said softly.
Laura moved her hand away. ‘Are you softening me up for something I don't want to hear?’
‘What do you mean?’
Laura sighed and then it turned into a smile. ‘I love you to death, Jack Garrett,’ she said, ‘but if you need to see me, and it's to do with work, I need to worry.’
I reached out for her hand again. She didn't move it this time, and I felt her fingers grip mine. They felt different to Katie's. Older somehow, her skin dry, the veins showing on the back of her hand.
‘I went to see Sam Nixon this morning,’ I said.
‘I know. Keep going.’
‘He wanted me to meet someone. Two people in fact.’ I paused for effect, to make sure I could properly gauge Laura's response. ‘They were Sarah Goode's parents.’
Laura didn't react at first. Then I saw her eyes widen.
‘The teacher wanted for murder?’
I nodded slowly.
‘Jack, what are you playing at?’
‘Nothing. That's why I'm telling you.’
‘What did they want?’
‘In an ideal world, to turn the clock back,’ I answered. ‘But as they can't, they want me to find their daughter.’
‘Why? Do they think she is innocent?’
‘I don't know. Perhaps they just want to stop her from doing something stupid.’
‘But why you?’
I gave a small smile. ‘I'm cheaper than a private detective. If there is a story in it, I'll do the research. They just want to find their daughter.’
‘But why go through Sam Nixon?’
I didn't answer that. I knew that Laura would work it out as quickly as I had.
‘They want you to find her so that they can bring her in on their terms,’ she said. ‘They want to get her story straight.’
‘Maybe. I just don't know,’ I said. ‘But they know that Sarah is in trouble and so went to a defence lawyer first.’
‘So why are you telling me?’ said Laura, and she pulled her fingers away again.
‘What's wrong?’ I asked.
Laura looked into her coffee for a few seconds, and then she said, ‘I've put my career on hold for Bobby, to make sure he stays with us. I'd even give it up completely for him, if I had to, but you won't even give up a story.’
‘It's not like that,’ I protested. ‘It won't affect the custody case, because it won't go to print for a long time, at least until after she is convicted.’
‘So why are you telling me, if it won't affect anything with Bobby?’ she asked.
‘Because if I'm being used, someone else is in control of what happens, and I don't like that. So I want you to tell the murder team what I'm doing. They won't like it, but if I find out where she is before they do, I'll tell them.’
Laura folded her arms. ‘Have you met the murder team?’ When I shook my head, she continued, ‘They've been strutting around the station ever since Luke's body was found. We're just the small-town hicks who can't cope, waiting to be saved by headquarters, and you're worse than that, because you're not in the job. All you'll do is antagonise them if you get in the way.’
I raised my eyebrows. ‘You don't sound pleased with them.’
Laura sighed. ‘I'm just bored, Jack. I didn't join the police to process prisoners. I joined it to solve crimes, as corny as it sounds.’
‘So maybe you know how I feel?’
I saw her soften, felt her fingers grip mine again.
‘The judge isn't going to give Geoff custody of Bobby just because you're good at your job,’ I said.
Tears flashed into Laura's eyes. She took a deep breath. ‘We've been through this too many times now,’ she said, ‘and I know that nothing is dead certain in a courtroom. I'm not taking that chance.’
When I didn't respond, she added, ‘You're going to get involved, though, aren't you?’
‘I think it's worth a look.’
Laura thought about that for a few seconds, and then she stood up to go. ‘I've got to get back to work,’ she said.
‘Laura?’
‘You'll do what you want to do, Jack,’ she said wearily. ‘You always do.’
And then she went.
I saw the waiter looking at me when I turned around. He shrugged. I didn't have a response to that. Instead, I watched Laura disappear out of view, her head down, and I thought that she looked a long way from home.
Sarah was kneeling on the floor, her hands over her ears, the deep bass of the heartbeats booming out of the speakers making her dizzy, her own heartbeat keeping time. Then the speakers went quiet.
She paused for a moment, relished the silence, but when she heard the bolt slide on the door, she scuttled back against the wall.
He walked slowly into the room, the black hood silhouetted against the lights from the ceiling. For a moment, Sarah saw the gap behind him, the way out, but as he got closer all she could see was his dark shadow, the room filled with the rasping breaths emanating from under the hood.
He didn't move as he stood and looked down at her.
Sarah thought of her parents, and she felt tears choke her up. She took a deep breath, tried to swallow them away, and asked, ‘What do you want me to do?’ When he didn't respond immediately, she added, ‘I'll do what you want, if you'll just let me go.’ Her voice broke as she pleaded with him and a tear ran down her cheek.
‘Take off your clothes,’ he said, his voice deep and muffled, almost gravelly.
Sarah closed her eyes and grabbed the open neck of her shirt, pulling it tight. This was it now, the reason, what it was all about. Just close your eyes, she told herself. Don't think about it. Give him what he wants, and then get out. She started to shake, felt her chin tremble, more tears on her cheek. She took a deep breath and shook her head, tried to find some reserves of courage.
He took one step forward. Sarah took one step back.
‘Why are you doing this?’ she shouted at him.
He kept on walking towards her. Sarah stepped back again, but the wall stopped her. She could smell cigarettes on him, rolling tobacco, strong, pungent.
Sarah looked down and reached for the top button of her shirt.
‘Don't hurt me,’ she screamed, and then she began to sob, unable to stop herself. She flicked at the button, her hands trembling, and the top of her shirt fell open. It was one of Luke's shirts and it was too big for her. She flicked at the next button and felt the coldness of the room against her breasts. She was exposed to him, goose-pimples across her chest, and she could smell oil on him, and sweat.
Sarah yelped as he grabbed her chin and made her look at him. She could see only the black cloth of the hood, moving in and out faster now, his breaths deeper.
He grabbed at the next button down, his fingers rough and dry. Her cleavage was flecked with sweat despite the cold. He ran his finger between her breasts and rubbed the moisture between his fingers. It seemed almost
tender, caring, and then he said softly, ‘If you don't do as I say, I'll hurt you.’
Sarah choked on a sob, and as she closed her eyes, she steeled herself, tried not to think about what she was doing.
She undid the rest of her buttons and let the shirt fall to the floor. She looked down, saw the dirt on her jeans. She undid them and let them fall to her ankles, stepping out of them so that she was naked in front of him. She felt exposed, vulnerable, so she put her arms across her chest and pressed her thighs together. Make it quick, she thought, and looked at the ceiling. Don't make it hurt. Just do it and let me go. Please.
Sarah opened her eyes when she heard movement. He was no longer there. She stepped away from the wall just as he came back into the room, except that this time he was carrying something. A hosepipe.
She was confused at first, but then she looked down and saw how dirty she was. Her skin looked mottled and cold, and her legs were soiled from when she had been trapped in the box.
She cried out as the blast of water hit her. It was icy, the stream coming at her like a punch. Sarah twisted, tried to get out of its way, but it followed her. The dirt around her feet turned into mud. She thought she heard someone else in the room, but maybe it was the water bouncing off the walls. It smacked into her chest, against her legs, her stomach. She cried out but the sound was lost in the noisy rush of water.
Then the water stopped. Sarah gasped with cold as the water dried on her body, her hair still dripping wet.
He moved towards her, his boots squelching in the mud. She didn't look up, just cried and flinched when she felt his hands on her shoulders. They felt warm and clammy against her frozen skin.
‘Why are you doing this?’ she asked, her teeth chattering with cold.
‘I do it because I like it,’ he replied. ‘Isn't that a good enough reason?’
Sarah looked at the hood, tried to guess at the face behind it. All she saw was black cloth. No features. No eye-holes.
‘That's evil,’ she said quietly, shivering.
He stepped back in fake shock. ‘Evil?’ he asked, and Sarah heard the pleasure in his voice. ‘What does that mean?’
‘You know what it means,’ she shouted, angry now, tears running down her face.
He shook his head, enjoying himself. ‘I give power to my imagination, that's all,’ he said. ‘You live your life in fear, scared of consequences. I don't. That's what makes us so different.’
‘You don't know me,’ she said.
‘Oh, I do, Sarah Goode. Better than you think. Everything has consequences, even the things that you do. Your little games, Sarah, they all mean something.’
Sarah swallowed, started to shiver again, but this time it was through fear.
‘And what if I don't want to play your games?’ she asked.
‘Then you will die,’ he said simply. He gripped her hair in his hands and whispered into her ear, ‘but I could
show you a different way. No more fear, no more being held back.’
Sarah closed her eyes.
‘Will you live your life my way?’ he asked, letting go of her.
Sarah looked at the floor and nodded her head slowly. ‘I'll do whatever you want me to do.’
She screamed as the water hit her again, smacking hard against her chest and then her face. She tried to curl up, her arms wrapped around her head, but the water carried on until she could feel herself slipping in the mud.
When the water stopped, she looked up at her captor. He was standing over her, the hosepipe dripping in his hands. He stepped forward and pressed his hands onto her shoulders, turning her around. Sarah could feel his eyes on her even through the hood, examining her, as if he was searching for something. She stared at the floor, tried not to think what he might do. Once he had turned her full circle, he grabbed her face in his hands and pulled her towards him. Sarah tried to look away, but he held on to her cheeks, made her look at him.
‘What do you see?’ he asked slowly, his breath smelling stale and unclean, even through the hood.
‘I see you,’ Sarah replied.
‘Not me. What do you see ahead, for you? Your future?’
Sarah swallowed, and then closed her eyes.
‘I don't see one,’ she said quietly.
‘Have you ever wondered about the end?’ he whispered. ‘What it will be like to draw that last breath, to
look into the abyss, to know that you'll know the answer soon enough, life after death, or is it just nothing?’
Sarah swallowed back tears and small moans of fear escaped.
‘I want to see the end flicker across your eyes so clearly that I can feel it too,’ he continued. Sarah could hear him licking his lips, and then he let go of her and turned to leave the room.
When he'd gone, Sarah saw that he'd left no food. And her clothes were gone. She was naked. No blankets, no bed, the incessant beam of the headlights illuminating the room and her feet cold in the wet dirt.
Then she heard the speakers pulse back into life, and the heartbeat sound filled the room once more as she sank back against the wall, sliding downwards, the stone cutting into her back, her cries mixing with the repetitive thumps.