Elaine found a large, tabletop formation of limestone at the edge of the largest copse of pine trees on the Matherly property, and she sat there in the full light of the morning sun, letting the heat bake some of the confusion and fear out of her. Only when she felt relaxed and in control of herself again did she begin to consider what she had been through, what it all meant, and what she might be forced to go through before this nightmare was all over.
She could not quit and leave without notice, though the notion had occurred to her. She simply could not afford that extravagance. When she had come to the Matherly house a few days ago, all she owned in this world had been packed into the Volkswagen: her clothes and a very few mementos of her childhood and the years she had spent at the University Hospital. Her wallet contained only seventy dollars; she had no bank account and no hidden funds. Even the car, five years old now, was not worth a great deal. Lee Matherly's kind advance of money against her salary had been more than welcome and made her feel secure as she had never been in her life. If she quit without notice, she would, in all good conscience, have to return the check he had given her. Then she would be without a job-and, worse, without a good reference to obtain another job. She would not even have enough to rent a room for more than a month or so, while she tried to find a job, and she would probably have to take a position waiting tables or some such, while her training as a nurse went to waste. No, she could not quit; she would almost rather die than accept the insecurity of unemployment.
But there were other considerations besides finances. For one thing, it was against her professional code to leave a patient untended. Certainly, with the salary they could offer and with all the fringe benefits that befell their employees, the Matherlys could find another nurse in a day or two, three at the most. But Elaine could not bring herself to abandon a patient for even that short a period of time. She believed Jacob needed her and that the height of selfishness would be to leave him alone when his angina might bother him again at any moment. She must also consider, she knew, what quitting the job would mean in terms of her self-respect. She had never run away from anything. She had never allowed herself to be consumed with fear of anything. If she did not hold on now, if she ran, she would never again be able to think of herself as the sensible, intelligent, sober young woman she had always liked to believe she was.
And there was Gordon.
In high school and later in nurses training, no one had ever shown much interest in her. Oh, now and then, boys would talk to her and ask her for a date. But none of them ever dated her twice. And word always seemed to get around that she was too serious or cold. She had never liked to do the things that most young people liked to do. Games bored her. All but the best and most thought-provoking films seemed a waste of time to her. She did not like to drink, not even a cocktail now and then, and she found no particular interest in dancing. She could understand why so many young people were frivolous, of course. They had been raised by loving parents, and they had never had a glimpse of how cold the world could be. She had gotten that glimpse-and many others-early in life, and she knew that one had to be sober, had to be serious, had to work to keep oneself from sliding to disaster in a world where pitfalls were everywhere prevalent. Educate yourself, spend your time wisely, always be prepared to do battle with life: that had been her code since she was a child. And because of it, there had been no romantic interest in her life to date.
Until Gordon.
Gordon was so much like she was, so aware of the cruelty of life and so anxious to work to avoid it, that she could not help being attracted to him. She thought that he was, likewise, attracted to her. She hoped so. Oh, God please let him be!
The rest of her reasons for having to remain on the job were sound, logical ones. This one was emotional. And having never been possessed of such an emotion before, she let this one carry her away more completely than she would ever have admitted was possible. She would not yet say she loved him. It was too soon for that. She did not know him well enough. But strong, very strong affection, yes
So, if she were to stay, if she were to start to build her life at this time and place, she would have to give some thought to the identity of the killer who prowled the Matherly house. When she told Captain Rand of her experience this past night, she would want to be able to clearly answer any questions he might ask and give him her own projections if he should want them.
Ghosts?
That was silly. Perhaps the knife had disappeared. And perhaps the voice of a child had cried out at night, all over the house, in a ghostly fashion. There would be rational reasons for these two events.
Her visit with Jerry and Bess had not been a total loss, however. She had learned that the police had once suspected old Jacob Matherly of the Christmas Eve murders, no matter how briefly, and she knew that she would now have to include him in any list of suspects she might devise-no matter how ludicrous his inclusion might seem.
Jacob Matherly. Though she was sure that the old man was not capable of any such outrage as the attack on Celia Tamlin, and certainly incapable of the atrocities that had occurred in this house fifteen years earlier, she had to admit that he had the opportunity, perhaps a better opportunity than anyone else. After her evening checkup, he was not bothered until the morning, unless one of the family spent time with him. The night of Celia's misfortunes, he had remained in his room until she, Elaine, had come to check on him. Or so he said. He might easily have been outside the house and could have returned, with little trouble, while the rest of them were running to see what had happened. He was protected by his semi-invalid status, and the police showed little or no interest in him.
Dennis Matherly. Supposedly, he had been in the kitchen, drinking a glass of milk, alone, when he heard Celia scream. That would explain, of course, why he had come
up
the stairs that night and had asked if Elaine had called out. On the other hand, if he had been the wielder of the blade, he might also have been returning from the drive where he had tried to kill the girl. She remembered his strange paintings, his manic frivolity. She recalled Lee's favoritism for Dennis, and she remembered that Dennis had admitted to being deeply psychologically shaken by his mother's madness. Could he have been so shaken that he, himself, had gradually relinquished his sanity over the years?
Paul Honneker. He shared the same parents, carried the same sort of genes that Amelia had carried. Had the faulty gene, the bad seed, which his grandfather possessed, been passed to him as well as to his sister? She remembered his drunkenness, his inability to hold a job for any length of time, though he was a grown man nearing middle age. Surely, that indicated an unstable individual. And there was the way he smashed mirrors, unable to face himself. Was that because he knew what he was and remembered terrible things he once had done? She remembered, too, his fascination with the eerie paintings that Dennis Matherly labored over in his attic studio.
Gordon Matherly. She would even have to consider Gordon, no matter how much she might care for him. He did, after all, come of the same gene pool as Dennis and from somewhat the same heritage as Paul Honneker. She remembered his swift reaction to her mention of the Christmas Eve murders, the way he had gone cold and withdrawn from her. That might be attributed to a reasonable shame for the family's history-or to something darker.
That was the list she could give Captain Rand. All the household except herself and Lee Matherly, who was clearly shaken by the attempted murder of Celia Tamlin and who-besides-had no Honneker blood.
Abruptly, she remembered that Jerry and Bess were also members of the household. Although she could see no motive for their having been involved, she could not discount them. When she considered the books in their front room and the unswaying belief in ghosts which they had manifested in their recent conversation, she had to consider the possibility of some unpleasant connection between the old couple and the killer. Either or both of them, after all, could have stabbed Celia and fled into their own home, without any risk of being seen returning to the main house from the scene of the crime.
Paranoia?
Perhaps it was.
Common sense?
Definitely.
She would have to suspect everyone, or nearly everyone, until the real culprit was apprehended and his guilt was proven. That could not be more than a few days, what with Celia being treated by a psychiatrist. And if she helped Captain Rand now, today, the end might come even more quickly.
She stood up, stretched, and brushed the dust from the back of her skirt.
The sky was an incredible shade of blue. Perhaps that was a good omen, a promise of better times to come.
Somewhere nearby, a bird sang, a long trilling note caught in its throat, and that was somehow a positive omen as well.
She decided against phoning Captain Rand on her own hook. For one thing, she might find it hard to reach him, and she would not want to impart her information to a clerk or a lesser officer who would not respect the privacy of what she said. This evening, after supper, she would tell Lee Matherly exactly what she had heard and seen last night, about the intruder at her door and about the attempt on Jacob's life which he now denied (or maybe there had been no attempt and his story had been concocted for her benefit, to generate her sympathy). If Lee then took it to Captain Rand, it would have more power, be more believable. She did not trust herself to make important news sound important.
She looked at her watch. It was 1:18, and she had been sitting here far longer than she would have guessed. It was time for another of Jacob's checkups.
She started back for the house, feeling better.
Tonight.
Tonight, it just all might break open. And then she should be able to live in peace again
Lee Matherly finished his coffee and looked around the full table, smiling at everyone, as if they were all his children, even Elaine and Paul Honneker. He had been in an especially good mood ever since he had come to the table, though the reason for this was not entirely clear to Elaine. It was almost, she eventually decided, as if he had some big secret which he was hiding from them but which he would soon reveal. That was, as it turned out, exactly the case.
I spoke with Captain Rand this afternoon, Lee said. He had some very interesting information.
Everyone at the table looked at him, the last bits of dessert and last sips of coffee forgotten.
Even without Celia's help, they're making some headway on this hitchhiker.
Oh? Dennis asked.
You didn't tell me, Gordon said. He had been with his father that afternoon, though not when Rand had spoken to him.
I wanted to save it for now, Lee said. I know how bad everyone has been feeling over this, and I wanted to be the one to cheer you up.
What did Rand have to say? Dennis asked.
They know the hitchhiker was bound for Philadelphia, Lee said.
Dammit, Lee, don't be so cryptic. Tell it all! Paul Honneker was flushed: He was not drunk; but he had evidently had a nip or two earlier.
Apparently, the police have had this for a couple of days, ever since they went through Celia's car, but they've been holding it because they don't want the killer to know they're onto him.
What? Dennis asked. His face was hollow, his teeth bared. The way he leaned over the table reminded Elaine-perhaps melodramatically- of an animal tensing to leap.
A sign, Lee Matherly said. You know how hitchhikers carry signs that say where they're headed? They flash them up for oncoming traffic to see.
And they found a sign in the car? Gordon asked.
Yes. Jammed down between the seat and the back of the seat, a piece of cardboard with PHILADELPHIA lettered on it. They figured Celia picked him up in or near the city and brought him this way, as far as the turnoff from the main highway. At that point, he forced her to drive up here. Lord knows what he had in mind-perhaps holding us hostage or something. He apparently had second thoughts when she drove onto the grounds, and he made her get out and tried to kill her there.
Dennis relaxed again. She always was one for picking up hitchhikers. We used to warn her about it all the time.
I don't see, Paul Honneker said, where this sign is really very much of a clue. Unless they've taken fingerprints from it and the car.
No, Lee said. Rand explained that paper didn't take prints too well and that none of the prints in the car lead them anywhere.
Then how can this mean anything? Paul asked.
Lee said, They plan to use the sign, if necessary, to jolt Celia's memory when the psychiatrist has her hypnotized.
Paul said, And they think that'll work?
The psychiatrist thinks it might. Anyway, it's a lead. And we can all breathe easier when they catch him, whoever he is.
Elaine realized that Lee Matherly had also wondered if one of his own household was the guilty party and that this bit of news from Rand, no matter how slight, relieved him of that awful burden of doubt.
She was not convinced.
She doubted very much that the hitchhiker had returned to prowl the corridors of the house last night.
That
had been a member of the family.
Well, Lee said, rising, I have some ledgers to look over before I can call the evening mine. He nodded to them and left the dining room for his first floor den.
Shortly, the others had left, all but she and Gordon, as if they both had planned to be left alone.
Come into the drawing room a while, he said, standing and coming to her where he performed the courtesy of pulling her chair out for her. I expected father to tell everyone about the psychiatrist who's treating Celia. We both met him, a Dr. Carter. I asked to sit in on his session, and he said I could, once Celia had been hypnotized. It was quite fascinating.
I imagine so, she said as he took her hand and led her from the dining room, through the archway, across the deep carpet to a sofa where he sat beside her.
She felt warm and protected, and for a moment she forgot all about telling Lee Matherly her story.
Did you have any contact with psychiatrists in your nurses training? Gordon asked.
Elaine said, Not much. Medical science still frowns a little on psychiatry, you know.
Well, Gordon said, I don't know if Dr. Carter is an example of the average psychiatrist or whether he is superior to the average, but he is a most impressive man!
She felt herself smiling, and she realized that Gordon had put her more at ease than she had felt in days. She could hear Bess clearing the table. Lee was using the adding machine in the adjoining den. Upstairs, a phonograph was playing classical music. For the first time, this seemed like a house where people lived, instead of a house where they died. She liked it all very much, and she felt that she belonged and was not an outsider.
In what way? she asked.
Gordon said, He is tall and, I imagine, the women would say he is very handsome. He's maybe thirty-five or so, terribly young for a psychiatrist, at least in my estimation.
Was he able to regress Celia under hypnosis, to take her back to the moment she was stabbed?
No, Gordon said. But he came close. Let me tell you exactly how it was.
Celia had been sitting up in the hospital bed when Gordon was conducted into the room by Dr. Carter. She was pale, but as lovely as she had been before the incident. She seemed to have lost a little weight, but there was no other sign of her condition.
Can't she see me? Gordon had asked.
She only sees me-and she only hears what I tell her to, Carter had informed him. Sit down over there. She does not even know you're here.
Dr. Carter walked to the side of the bed and stood by Celia. He touched her face with his fingers, but she hardly seemed to notice. He cupped her chin in his hand and raised her face so that she was looking directly into his eyes.
Hello, Celia, he said.
Hello, Dr. Carter.
How are you feeling?
I don't feel, she said.
How old are you?
I am no age.
No age at all? he had insisted.
No age at all, she said.
Dr. Carter turned to Gordon then, smiling, and explained what he had done, through hypnosis. The first step in age regression was to get the patient used to floating about in time, to accepting a fluidity of age. By giving her no age at all, he could suggest, hypnotically, that she was now only twenty years old. Now nineteen. Now eighteen. And so on until she was a child. In this case, however, it was only necessary to go back a few days, back to Monday evening.
What time is it now? he asked Celia.
No time.
What day?
I don't even know, she said. And she giggled self-consciously.
There's no need to be ashamed of not knowing the day, he said, speaking warmly, still touching her face.
Okay, she said, immediately malleable to whatever he said
Now, do you see a clock in front of you, Celia?
No.
Look closely.
I see it.
Watch the hands, he said.
I am watching them.
Are they turning backwards?
Backwards?
They are, aren't they?
Yes, she said, her pretty face puzzled.
Don't worry about that. They should turn backwards. That's what we want them to do. In this case, that is perfectly natural.
The frown was erased from the girl's face.
It is now Wednesday morning, yesterday morning, Carter said. Do you remember yesterday morning?
I woke up in a hospital.
That's right.
I was hurt very bad, she added. I touched myself and I hurt where I touched myself, and the nurses came and there was this needle in my arm, feeding me glucose and
Okay, fine, he said. You're okay now. Yesterday's hurt doesn't matter if you're okay today. Isn't that so?
Yes, she said, calmed instantly.
Now, Dr. Carter said, it is no longer Wednesday anymore, is it, Celia? He stroked her chin.
No.
It's Monday morning, isn't it?
Yes.
Carter had then turned to Gordon and explained that he did not want to regress the patient immediately to the moment of the attack, prior to her coma. That would have been too traumatic, too sudden. Instead, he intended to regress her to Monday morning and then slowly work her through the day until the moment when she had been attacked.
And so it had gone until Carter said, Now, it is late Monday night, and you are putting the suitcase in your car. You are going away to stay somewhere for the weekend. Is that right?
Yes, Celia had said. But already there was a look of trouble on her face, a shadow of anxiety.
Where are you going, Celia?
She did not answer.
Where are you going for the weekend? Carter asked again.
I-
Yes?
She could not speak it.
What are you afraid of? he asked.
Nothing.
Good. There is nothing to be frightened of, nothing at all. Now, where are you going for the weekend?
At that moment, she tore herself away from the doctor's gentle hand and began to scream.
It was horrible, Gordon told Elaine, breaking his narrative to add his first personal comment since he had begun to relate the tale. It was as if she were being stabbed right then, in the hospital.
Dr. Carter had not been unduly disturbed by her sudden, violent reaction. He merely said, Stop screaming, Celia.
And she stopped.
He said, No one will hurt you. No one will ever hurt you, because you are too pretty and too charming. Do you believe that anyone would ever hurt you?
No, she said. But she said it reluctantly.
It is now Wednesday morning.
Wednesday, she repeated.
Where are you?
The hospital.
Watch the clock. The hands are moving forward. Do you see how they're moving forward now?
Yes.
It is Thursday morning now, isn't it, Celia?
She said that it was.
At that point, Carter had turned to Gordon. I'll have to wake her now and try again tomorrow. Would you please leave? She might be harder to control in subsequent sessions if she knows she's being observed.
And I left, Gordon said. I was quite shaken.
I imagine so, Elaine said as the story slowly impressed upon her how eerie the scene must have actually been.
At first, Gordon said, I considered going back to watch the other sessions, until he was finished with her. I'm sure Carter would have let me. But when I heard her scream and saw the look on her face towards the end of the session, I knew that I didn't want to be there when she finally relived the attack. That would be too much.
For a moment, they were both quiet, and Elaine said at last: Gordon, do you believe this hitchhiker theory?
What other theory is there?
I don't want to make you angry at me, she said.
He leaned forward. You couldn't do that. What is on your mind, Elaine?
She hesitated only a moment, then told him everything.
He listened closely, and when she was finished, he said, Come on. We have to let father know about this.
He led her into the den and had her repeat what she had told him. Lee Matherly listened, amused at first, then more and more concerned until, when she finished, he looked deeply disturbed.
And you never got a look at the person and haven't any idea who it was?
No, she said. She did not want to go into detail about her suspicions of nearly everyone. There would be time for that when Captain Rand was here.
I'll have to talk to father, Lee said. Will you wait here a few minutes? He stood up, not waiting for a reply, and left the room.
You must have been terrified, Gordon said. He took her hand, and she felt his strength enclose her fingers, felt that protected aura again.
She nodded agreement.
Don't worry, he said. Father will take care of this. It looks, now, like it will all be settled this evening. He sounded grim. He had realized, just as his father must have, that her story was a strong indication that the killer was a member of the family. It will all be settled shortly, he repeated. I'm certain.
I hope so, Elaine said. The dark, paneled walls seemed terribly close, the air thick and unbreathable.
They waited for Lee Matherly to return.