Sorry, You're Not My Type (19 page)

Vikrant interrupted Yuvi, ‘Yuvi what’s wrong? Calm yourself down first. What is your point exactly? We all are responsible for today’s scenario. You can speak your heart out.’

Yuvi continued, ‘Everybody goes through some things in life that changes them in a way that they can never go back to being the person they were before. Last night changed me in a similar way. Now I cannot go back to being the person I once was. As I told you, it was not all of a sudden. Remember, I had told you that there is that oomph factor in Anamika which attracted me to her even though I hated her carefree attitude to the core? When I met her for the first time in our college auditorium, I felt like she had that wow factor in her which impressed me a great deal. Though I was committed to Kashish, I couldn’t help myself from staring at her sexy figure and that’s human tendency. Men are made like that. I thought that she was flirting with me because she would try and come close to me. Maybe I misunderstood her actions—I do not know. Her relationship with Anurag made me feel like she was a girl who you could take to parties just to show her off to your friends. It was completely my perception and it was developed on the basis of her casual attitude towards late night parties and drinks. I never knew her before so I was not aware of how she was as a person. When I got acquainted with her, I realized that though she exposed a bit much, she was a nice person at heart. Remember Vikrant, you were against her relationship? You asked me how she could agree to Anurag’s proposal just to overcome her fear. I was the one who convinced you that she was not wrong and that her situation had made her take that decision. Day by day, my infatuations increased and I even tried to talk to her about it but I never got a chance. Once I tried telling her in the car on our way to some place, but since Anurag had come along, I couldn’t find the right opportunity. Plus, I thought of Kashish and our four-year-old relationship, and how much she had supported me. I couldn’t do this to her. Do you ever regret making a decision? I regret the day I decided to give her equal space in our band though she never was an active participant and just wanted to enjoy outings and parties. Her dream was to be a part of one of the best bands in town but my dream was to make our band the best in town. Soon she started getting more popular than me and that made me jealous. It was our band and we had put equal efforts, so why was she getting the maximum publicity? I couldn’t digest it and each day it killed me from inside. I wanted to harm the same skin she showed off to win fans. Though I hated her more each day, I was also in a way attracted to her. Probably because she was a complete contrast to Kashish. I controlled my emotions for the sake of the band. But when her relationship screwed everything we had earned with so much of hard work, I lost it. I had warned her so many times to keep her personal relationship away from the band but she didn’t listen.

‘When you told me about this trip, I thought I will refuse to avoid facing Anamika since I knew it could lead to something unwanted. For your friendship, I agreed to come for this trip. Kashish explained to me that Anamika was not wrong on her part and that she was like this by nature. While you and Sanaya were spending time together, Anamika came to me and apologized for whatever had happened. However, it only takes one second to break someone’s trust but it takes an entire lifetime to rebuild it. I didn’t want to create a scene as I knew how important this trip was for your relationship and I accepted her apology. But there comes a time in life when we realize that we cannot force love, respect, or friendship. If it’s not from the heart, then it’s false and meaningless!!

‘I had realized that our relationship could never be the same again. But strange are our emotions. Even when you know that things won’t go your way, you still take a chance. That evening when you proposed to Sanaya, we both were equally happy and casually hugged each other. The hug changed something in me. I wanted to feel her. I wanted to see how wild she could get. I wanted to see if she could satisfy my urge. But fate had a different plan in mind. Yesterday when I was alone before the party, I thought of going to the beach just to chill out by myself for a bit. But I had no idea that it was high tide until I had gone too deep into the water. The waves almost engulfed me. I screamed for help, as I was not a good swimmer. I was lucky that the security guard heard my screams in time and came running to save me. I didn’t tell you about this episode as I wasn’t hurt and I did not want to spoil your first evening together as a couple. In those few seconds, I wanted to live my life just as I wished. The fear of facing death changed me completely. Now I wanted to fulfil all my fantasies because facing death had made me realize that we never know what will happen the next moment. Later that night when we went to look for Anamika I was not at all in my senses.

‘We should never start a task if we don’t intend to finish it and we should never speak up if we don’t mean it. When I saw Anamika alone yesterday on the beach I decided to strike a conversation with her and break the barriers that lied between us. I spoke things I never meant. I don’t even remember everything but I will try…’

Jampore Beach, Daman

‘Anamika what are you doing here?’ Yuvi asked her when he saw her sitting alone on the sea shore.

‘I just want to spend some time alone,’ Anamika answered.

‘Are you alright?’

Yuvi came and sat next to her. She was surprised by the amount of concern he was showing.

‘Yes. I am so confused about where my life is going. I still wonder if I’m capable of loving anyone. Anyway, what’s wrong with you? You look drunk,’ Anamika added.

She wanted to spend time alone away from everyone to think about her future and her life, so she had kept her phone on silent mode. She was in no mood to take calls from anyone. She also wanted to avoid Yuvi’s party because she sensed Yuvi was not very keen in spending time with her. She didn’t want to spoil Vikrant and Sanaya’s night and thus preferred to spend some time alone by herself on the beach.

‘There is something about you which attracts me to you. You are one of those girls who look nice when they are drunk. I wanted to express my feelings since a long time but I never got a chance,’ Yuvi exclaimed.

Anamika was feeling odd at the sudden change in his behaviour. She knew very well that Yuvi loved Kashish from the core of his heart. She told him to watch what he was saying as he was drunk. She further added that whatever he was up to was wrong. But Yuvi was in no mood to listen to her. He tried to catch hold of her forcefully. He held her by her waist and planted a kiss on her mouth. Anamika tried to push him away but he was too big for her to handle.

‘This body makes me crazy. I want to ram you right here on the beach. I want to see my fantasy turn into a reality. Oh bitch! Let me taste you tonight. Let me feel your body.’

Yuvi forcefully pushed her to the ground and jumped on top of her. She tried to resist with all her might but he was too strong for her. He tried to kiss her neck and her mouth. She tried to scream but he shut her mouth by placing his hand on top of it. After some time, she surrendered to his wishes. She lied there like a dead body while Yuvi devoured her as if she was a piece of meat. Tears trickled down her face. Anamika felt like she was losing a friend forever. The feeling was worse. The more Yuvi tried to force himself physically on her, the farther he went mentally. By the time he went up and left, she had turned inanimate.

Anand Hospital, Daman

‘Excuse me. The doctors have given their final report to us. They said that she was physically assaulted. You need to treat her with love and pamper her without giving her stress. Anamika is being kept under observation for 24 hours. We are leaving for the day but if needed, we will come back. Do you have any clue what was she was doing so late at the beach?’ the senior inspector inquired.

A wave of silence filled the air. They knew what had happened last night but couldn’t say anything in front of the cops. They simply shook their heads to say ‘no’. A lost or a broken friendship hurts, but what hurts more is the realization that they weren’t a true friend to begin with.

What Was Her Fault?

Jampore Beach

M
istakes make you realize that sometimes there are no time outs and no second chances. Anamika couldn’t go back and change what had happened during the music festival but she had tried to break the wall of grudges between Yuvi and her. It was Yuvi who had broken all the trust. But what hurt her the most was that the pain was inflicted by none other than Yuvi whom she had regarded as a friend. He should have either forgiven her or taken her out of his future altogether. Why are some friends only there when you are a convenience to them. Yuvi had the same attitude towards her and she couldn’t do anything to change it. When Yuvi told them about the party he was hosting for Vikrant and Sanaya at the resort, Anamika felt Yuvi was not looking forward to her coming, so she chose to avoid the party by staying alone. She told Yuvi that she had bad headache and stayed back in the room. But she wanted to spend some time with herself to introspect, so she decided to go to Jampore beach without informing anyone. She wanted to peacefully think about her relationships, friendship, love, and the future.

She sat alone thinking about the incident that had changed their lives forever.

If it was my fault, then let me walk away from you all. Anurag did those things on purpose because he was serious about our relationship whereas all I wanted was to get over my fear. I had never crossed my limits. I never slept with him. If just roaming with him makes me a slut, then it was my fault. If spending time with him makes me a slut, then it was my fault. I never thought things would turn so ugly. My only mistake was that I kept him in the dark about my real intentions. However, looking at the image he had created for himself in the past, I never thought Anurag would get serious about me and would hurt our entire group. He tried to approach me so many times but I never talked to him after that incident. He should not have hurt you all and that was his fault. What more could I have done apart from ignoring him completely even after knowing he was a changed man and wanted me in his life anyhow? What more could have I done to prove my loyalty towards the band and our friendship?

Anamika was recounting her past when Yuvi came and sat beside her, inquiring about why she was on the beach alone at that time.

Yuvi tried to flirt with her which made her feel awkward as she knew that Yuvi loved Kashish dearly. She felt his sudden change in behaviour was because he was heavily under the influence of alcohol and drugs. Yuvi forced himself on her even though she resisted.

‘Yuvi, what are you doing. Please leave. This is wrong. Leave right now or else I will scream. You are drunk and not in your senses.’ Though she kept screaming for help, Yuvi didn’t show any mercy on her. The area was so isolated that no one could hear her scream.

‘I need you right now. I want to calm myself and make you my slave, you slut. If you can sleep with that Anurag, then why not with me? I just love your curves. I want to go deep inside you, my slave,’ Yuvi hissed as the feeling of revenge engulfed him.

He had lost it completely by then. Yuvi not just tore her clothes that night, he tore her heart apart. He used her body to fulfill his sexual fantasy, ignoring the soul that resided within her. Each time he hit her, she screamed louder. She struggled to release herself from his forceful grip. Yuvi came real close to her and whispered ‘Bitch I wish you weren’t alive’. She thought the same. She did not want to survive. He hardened his grip on her hands and covered her mouth. She finally gave up and closed her eyes wishing the time to pass by quickly so that the next time she opened her eyes, he wouldn’t be standing there. He pushed himself inside her harder and harder and she felt unbearable pain. She couldn’t believe it was happening to her. She stopped screaming after some time as she realized the torture was over. But the pain was going to last forever. After a few minutes, Yuvi left her alone to die. She lay there with torn clothes, nail scratches on her body, and blood all around. The ones you trust the most are the ones who shouldn’t be trusted. With each lie, the nature of the relationship changes. But what happened last night was not a lie. Yet the relationship had changed. Sometimes the greatest lessons learned are taught by those whom you label as your ‘friends’.