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Authors: Lilith Saintcrow

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“Where’s your little kitty, my dear? Home lapping a bowl of cream?” His eyes glowed bright blue, the threading of indigo in
his whites pulsing in time to some heartbeat too slow to be human.

“Saul isn’t your concern, Perry.” I was too tired to put much
fuck-you
into it. “Your concern right now is keeping that hostage breathing long enough for me to put an end to this.”

“And afterward?”

Afterward you can go fuck yourself again, if it will reach.
I folded my arms. “We’ll deal with
after,
after. Hurry up.”

“I think we should come to an agreement.”

“You’re about ten seconds away from me blowing another hole in your head. What you think doesn’t matter.”

His eyes glowed. A small flicker between his parted lips was his wet cherry-red tongue, gleaming in the dimness. “Not even
if I’m the one keeping you alive? The performers here are restive, and the Ringmaster is recovering from a nasty bout of green
smoke and cockroaches. Even Traders are so fragile.”

Even you,
he probably meant.

I am not a Trader. I’m a hunter. Don’t forget that difference, Perry.
“Five seconds.” I stared at the air over his head. “And counting.”

He sighed, spread his hands… and ducked out into the sunlight again, the shiver rippling through his linen suit as well as
his skin as the sun, that great enemy of all darkness, touched him.

I hoped it hurt. I hoped every fucking second he spent out in the daylight hurt him.

A straight-backed wooden chair lay flung on the floor, soaked in rotting hellbreed ichor. There was something odd—a long hank
of dead-black hair, tangled up in the muck. A few moments more of examination proved it to be a wig, with a kerchief tangled
in it. The kerchief had once been red, and was now rotting as the acid ate at it. The wig’s fake hair was stronger stuff,
bubbling slightly as it was… digested.

“Ugh.” I glanced up.
She was probably at the table when it started.

Greasy antique playing cards scattered across the table. Five of spades, ace of spades, queen of spades, all spackled with
steaming liquid rot and covered in teensy roach tracks. The crystal-ball shards vibrated slightly, and something lay tangled
under the knife-sharp splinters. Even the base of twisted dull metal the crystal ball must have rested on was torn up, sharp
jagged edges still quivering with distress.

The violence of this attack was far and away the worst. It looked like the hellbreed had literally exploded in chunks. Even
with all the sacrifice Zamba had performed at her house—the killing of her closest followers—this was superlative.

Which meant Mama Zamba must’ve had some link to Moragh the fortuneteller. Something physical, the last piece of the puzzle.

Come on. Something has to be here.
I was about to start tearing the tent apart when a round silvery glimmer caught my eye.

I crouched, the balls of my feet slipping slightly in greasy, bubbling gunk. Each piece of silver I wore quivered with blue
light, blessing reacting with contamination.

“Bingo,” I whispered. I shook a piece of fabric out of my pocket—a red bandanna, 51 colors like Gilberto’s, left over from
the last big case. I unknotted it, folded it over, and grabbed.

The pocket watch dangled, gunk dripping off it. Steam curled away from its steel curve. Not silver, and not gold, but still
antique. “Blessed Maria.” The words were numb on my lips, but the hellbreed ichor cringed, turning inert and dripping free.
“Watch over us sinners, now and at the hour of our death.”

Belief behind words neutralizes evil, one of the oldest tricks in the book.

I popped the case free. The watch had stopped at 11:59, and there was no way of knowing, but I would bet it was
P.M.
A plain face, with the Greek letter Omega right under the 12. The crystal wasn’t cracked, and engraved on the outer edge
of the front casing were three worn-down letters.

SRG.
Samuel Gregory. I wondered what the “R” stood for.

There wasn’t much about this case that I could feel good about. But I felt good about this, even with my coat hanging in hellbreed
muck and my heart breaking inside my ribs.

“Gotcha,” I said softly. “Gotcha, you bitch.”

I closed the watch up and stowed it in my pocket. Stood, my knees creaking, and surveyed the rest of the tent. A shadow fell
across the flap and I whirled, hand to a gun.

It was the stuttering barker, Troy. His face twisted up, hard red flush high on his cheekbones. His mouth was a thin line,
and his hair was mussed.

He held a bottle of Barbancourt rum. “H-h-h-here.” The single syllable strangled itself on the way out of his mouth. “I-it
w-was H-H-Helene’s.”

“Well, it’s going to help catch her killer.” I took the bottle, and he dug in his pocket. Came up with a much-wrinkled paper
bag. I pointed. It seemed easier than making him talk. “Cornmeal?”

He contented himself with a nod and handed it over. “A-are y-you r-really g-g-g-going to—”

“I’m really going to fuck up Helene’s killer, Troy.”
Jesus. I’m reassuring a Trader.
“How’s Ikaros?”

His thin shoulders came up, dropped. His eyes glittered with the flat shine of the dusted, and he seemed not to notice the
stink filling the tent. The red suspenders were even more hopelessly frayed, and his white shirt looked wilted. “Th-th-they
s-s-say you’re n-not g-g-g-going to d-do an-ny-nything. Th-that—”

God, it was like pulling nails out of stubborn wood, listening to him talk. “I don’t care what they say. I’m just interested
in getting this over with. Get out of here.”

His lip curled for a bare moment before turning into a thin bloodless line again, and he retreated out into the glare. I was
left holding the rumpled bag of cornmeal and a half-full bottle of Barbancourt, standing in the middle of a rotting smear
of hellbreed and staring at the shards of a crystal ball, clutching a pocket watch that ran with blue light under the surface
of its steel casing.

I set the rum and the bag of cornmeal on one of the few unsullied spots on the table, yanked the cup out of my pocket. The
watch fit inside, and when I drew the straight razor out and slid it into the cup the blue light didn’t just lurk below the
surface. It fizzed over, falling in a cascade of sparks. A shiver walked down my spine again.

“Oh yes.” I tilted the cup, watching the blue light paint the fraying velvet of the walls, and the bottle of rum trembled
against the tabletop. “I’ve got you now, Zamba.”

So much of sorcery is pure will. You don’t really have to do a damn thing except declare,
This is the way the world is.
People do it every day. The record plays just under the surface of their conscious minds, all those assumptions they make.

That’s just the way it goes. Some things won’t ever change.

It’s also the principle that lets hellbreed, Sorrows, Middle Way adepts, and so many others slip through the cracks. People
fear muggers or tax audits. They don’t fear the things that crouch in the crevices, staring up with glowing eyes that don’t
obey human geometry.

Oh, sure, people subconsciously cringe away from a full-fledged ’breed or shiver when an
arkeus
passes close enough to touch. But they won’t really
look.
They don’t want to see.

And they will hurry away, if they can. Lock their car doors and forget.

Whatever weird confluence of genetics and opportunity makes a hunter, one thing is paramount: the ability to look steadily
at the weirdness and the filth. The refusal to look away.

And add to that the stubbornness to refuse to accept that what you see has to stay the way you see it. I can’t explain it
any more clearly. It’s the original sin, I suppose—the pride to stand toe to toe with God and say,
No, you did something wrong. You fucked up here, and it’s my job to make it better. To fix it, as much as I can. Maybe you’re
too busy, maybe you have a great cosmic plan that accounts for all this suffering and hideousness—but I don’t, I’m not you,
and I’m going to fucking
do
something.

It’s just centimeters away from the pride that hellbreed think gives them the right to murder, rape, pillage, distort, and
batten on the helpless.

But those centimeters count.

The straight razor rattled in the blue enamel cup. The pocket watch did too, blue sparks popping and fizzing as I held it
in front of me, arms extended, knuckles and tendons standing up with the effort of keeping the wildly agitated metal still.

The rum burned in my mouth. I held it, my gag reflex quivering on the edge of kicking in, the alcohol fuming until my eyes
watered and spilled over. The cornmeal, a fine thin line of it in a circle around me, shifted. Little grains of it rose, touched
down again with slight whispering sounds.

They didn’t scatter. They just lifted and plopped down again.

When physical material has already been sensitized to a load of etheric energy, it’s easier to pump more force through it.
My arms burned. My throat was on fire. Tears rolled down my cheeks.

I ignored it all. Fierce, relaxed concentration filled my skull. The cup leapt and rattled like a live thing, jerking so hard
it would have dislocated my shoulder if hellbreed strength wasn’t pouring through my right fist, scorching sliding down my
wrist and pooling in my palm. My bones creaked. I dug my heels in, concentrating.

The pool of filth that used to be the fortuneteller bubbled. Her wig sent up curls of smoke. My blue eye narrowed, eyelid
twitching madly as if I had some sort of tic. The strings under the surface of the visible snarled, ran together in a complex
patterned knot.

Sometimes the best way to go about it is to unpick the knot, strand by strand. Then there’s other times, when you just slice
the goddamn thing in half and let the resulting reaction smack someone in the head.

Guess which one’s my favorite.

In this space, half-sideways from myself, I could
see
the fine dusting over every surface, an etheric imprint like the scales on a butterfly’s wings. Zamba had spent energy recklessly
to reach this victim.

She must be getting close to the end, or desperate.
The cup rattled, lunged forward.

The great hunter magics are largely sympathetic, as opposed to the controlling sorcery of, say, the Sorrows. Sympathetic magic
is intensely personal; you have to know yourself before you can use it. One of the greatest dictums in hunter training:
know thyself.

And of course, there are times when brute force instead of subtle knowledge is the best way to get things done.

I sucked in air through my rapidly filling nose, my lungs inflating. The rum was getting hotter and hotter in my mouth. The
cornmeal shifted wildly, with a sound like static cling on a pair of really big metallic socks.

I gathered myself. The mental image solidified inside my head, seen with the unsight of my blue eye. Long blond dreadlocks,
blue eyes, a narrow waist, a bony face with smallpox scars across the cheeks, a long blue and silver caftan kilted up to her
knees. Mama Zamba was crouched, looking wildly around her, fat snakes of hair writhing. She could probably tell something
was gathering, but not
what.

I spat, a long trailing mist of rum that ignited in a puff of blue flame. The cup leapt again, dragging me a few inches, my
heels stapling into the dusty ground. Cornmeal popped into flame too, sizzling. The smell was baking bread for just a moment,
then shaded into burning starch.

Potential shifted,
might
became
is,
and the force left me in a huge painless gout. The tent flapped wildly, straining against its moorings, and the calliope
music rose to a shriek.

Rum-fire and burning cornmeal winked out. The force yanking on the blue enamel cup snapped like a rubber band, and I sat down
hard, skidding on my leather-clad ass as my teeth jolted together.

Jesus. Major sorcery always ends up with a pratfall.
Reaction hit, like thunder after lightning. The strength went out of all my bones and I sagged, the scar singing one wet
little satisfied note against my arm.

I heard my own breathing, harsh stentorian gasps. Blinked several times. Gray smoke billowed, wreathed the entire tent. The
bubbling hellbreed ichor gave one or two last pops and settled, spent.

I swallowed, the reek of rum and burning baked goods sliming the back of my throat. “Checkmate,” I said, softly, and wished
I could lie down and sleep.

But there is no rest for the wicked, or for a hunter who has just bought a little breathing room. Zamba wouldn’t be fucking
with anyone at all until dark fell and the tide of magic turned. I pushed myself up on trembling hands and knees, wished Saul
was there.

It was the wrong thought. A sob escaped halfway, I set my teeth and bit, choking it off. Pushed myself upright the rest of
the way, every muscle screaming in protest.

Just a little longer, Jill. You’ve got a plan, stick to it.

It was good advice. But I was oh, so tired.

The iron voice of duty had no truck with my complaining.
Get moving. Finish the job.
I bent wearily, scooping the watch and the straight razor back into the cup.

Time for the next part of the plan.

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